is it a risk worth taking? (edited)

(To the ladies and gentlemen who have participated in the mini discussion of this blog entry: A new comment has been made by someone who has gained A LOT OF LESSONS FROM EXPERIENCES IN THE "LOVE" department. I personally think that this comment may help some of you figure out some things that is bothering your head.)

I have a friend who says that he/she will take the risk of telling someone that they "like" (like, meaning, maybe we can be friends, then maybe we can be more than friends) them if it was worth it.

I admire them for that because they're not afraid of the consequences that might come their way if they do tell. They said that even if they get rejected, at least, they won't regret not telling it.

But isn't it paradoxical to think about this? We were always told to guard our hearts from the potential misleads and expectations that can hurt it, but then, we always read or always hear the phrase, "tell them how you feel about them because if you don't, you might regret it in the future".

I think that's where I'm at right now. I'm stuck in between two outlooks where I can't seem to get myself out of.

I guess some of you who are reading this right now, know from experience what I'm talking about.

Therefore, I salute you for the courage to stand right in front of that someone and pretending to be "just a friend" to him or her. I also salute the people, who had the courage to tell their "someone" that they like them.

Asteg kayo!

random song lyrics that can hit your head AND heart

I think I'll go home now it's
been the greatest day thank
you for shedding life to my
fantasy throw me a wicked
smile the one like
yesterday
//
why i can never let you go
so strange extraordinary
why i can never tell you so i
must be dumb why i can
never let this go can't stop
this fun it must be done
- Another Day, Mojofly

2 Am and she calls me cause I'm still awake
Can you help me unravel my latest mistake
I don't love him and winter just wasn't my season.
- Breathe, Anna Nalick

After all this time,
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it,
couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
And part of me died when I let you go
- Blind, Lifehouse

short post

I now know what it feels like to get pulled over by the police.

It's a strange yet scary feeling.

Thank God, I was just warned about the current license/registration sticker that was hiding behind the Northwest Hospital plate.

I thought I was going to be ticketed for speeding at a 35 mph street --- I was going 40.

What A Day.

Aura: B-itchy/Cranky

Pahabol: Sa natarayan ko kanina.. kung binabasa mo man 'to. I'm churi! That time of the month e. Patawad. =)

Featuring: SOUND-OFF

I have updated my Music Page blog. Click the link below.

SOUND OFF

The blog has not yet been fully constructed. I'm just way to busy and way to lazy to work with it. But I'll (try) to make it look good soon. For now, just enjoy the audios and the playlists.

The DOCTOR IS OUT

It has been a while since my last doctor's appointment. I can barely even remember what was checked up on me during that time. My mom bugged me about making an appointment last spring break, but I wasn't able to or I would rather say that I didn't want to make it.

Ever since the time I got tested positive for having (dormant) tuberculosis virus and diagnosed with mild scoliosis, I kind of got a little bit edgy when it came to dealing with doctors. Ever since then, I didn't make any check-up appointments and best of all, I didn't follow up if I still had to take medications to fight off the dormant TB virus in my body, I don't go to any physical therapy (I think I still have 3 sessions left with HEALTHSOUTH) nor do I do the exercises that was given to me during the time I was undergoing PT (that MAY or MAY NOT correct my slightly disaligned backbone).

Yes, I'm a walking health rebel. I don't drink milk anymore. I don't take vitamins anymore. I don't get enough sleep at night. I drink coffee. I eat junk food a lot. I don't like going to doctors. I don't want to know if there's anything wrong with my stick-thin body.

A friend told me once, "you're afraid of the doctor, yet you want to become a doctor yourself?".

I told him, "I'm not sure if I still even want to be a doctor".

Is it true that doctors themselves don't want to be checked up on? Is it true? Cause if it is, I'd say I'm a pretty good candidate to become a doctor myself, since I'm reluctant to be checked up on.

I know that I should take care of my body in order to live a long and healthy life.

I'm just being a stubborn little girl awaiting for a sickness/disease/ilness/infection to come haunt and bring me down.

I'm a stubborn little girl. There, I saved you a lot of time and energy from telling me that.

Left:Stubborn Big Dog, Right: Stubborn Girl and Stubborn Big Dog: My attempt in taking a decent picture of me and Curly, I think he doesn't want to take a picture with me, maybe that's the reason why he keeps on moving on every attempt I make.

I'M IN. WOOHOO.

1. It's been two days since that admissions packet from SPU landed on my hands and I think the supposed "rant" that I should have posted two days ago had gone way over my head, in short, it just got played out. So, I will rant no more.

2. I'll be writing a post about friendship, so watch out for that. It's going to be a little dramatic, so prepare yourselves. LOL.

3. I want to watch this movie. The preview for it got me all teary-eyed. Don't ask why, because I, myself have no clue why.


pic courtesy of movies @ yahoo.com

Have a fabuloso week!

*GUSH* --- I'm in hyper mode.. so bear.

I once wrote an entry about this crush that I had on a guy that I rode the bus with.

There's a big improvement or should I say PROGRESS about him that happened today:

He said HI to me today!!! AIIIIYEEE!!! hehehehehehe..

HAAHHHHH.. I'm in heaven..

I'm in heaven because he knows that I exist!! WIIHH!!!

I'm in heaven because he said HI to me!! HAHAHAHAHA..

Ok, before the eye rolling and the throwing up, you have to give me some credit because that is the first time that he ever said a word to me. Well, technically not the first time, because I talked to him once before, when I made a fool out of myself in front of him.. but that's beside the point. My POINT is, HE KNOWS THAT I EXIST.

LOL.

----- moment of bliss over -----

and the WITCHCRAFT keeps piling up...

Friendster featured "horoscopes" as their new feature today. I read mine just for the heck of it and to my dismay this is what it read:

"You've been holding on to a vital, startling piece of information for quite some time now -- and you're ready to hang on to it for even longer, if need be. You might not be able to, however, if anyone else knows -- and if one of those 'anyones' wants to cause some major disruption in your life. Be careful who you let in on the secret. Even if it's someone you adore."

Now seriously, is there something going on around me that I should be aware of? Or am I just paranoid? See, this is what happens when you read into horoscopes and fortunes, THEY MAKE YOU PARANOID!!! GRRRR...

There's something about this "horoscope read" that hit me, hence, me getting all paranoid. I won't go into anymore detail about it.

(YAY!! I'm through with writing about personal stuff!! HE.HE.HE.).

The Fortune Lies.

We ate at Fushen today to celebrate my sister's birthday (her birthday was yesterday, but we celebrated it today with some of the family). As you good people know, Chinese restaurants always give out fortune cookies (and sometimes sliced oranges) at the end of the meal. So I got my share at the end of our yummylicious meal, and this is what it read:


I wonder what that "something" might be?

I usually don't believe fortune cookies or fortunes in general. I think they are pieces of crap lying around this lovely planet trying to screw people's mind up. But, today my whole value of not believing in fortunes just turned upside down when I read that fortune cookie's fortune. Is this a sign from UP THERE? Is this a sign that I've been asking for?

Haaayyy.. who knows.. it might be just one of those crappa fortunes.

Have a good week y'all.

P.S.:

"Thus, fear of danger is ten thousand times more terrifying than danger itself, when apparent to the eyes; and we find the burden of anxiety greater, by much, than the evil which we are anxious about:"

I just read this quote today, found it from the tagboard of a friend's blog. I looked the whole quote up in the internet. I think God is telling me something, I don't know what though.

Trippin'

I seldom watch TV anymore. The only time that I watch TV is if The OC or One Tree Hill is on, no more beyond that.

I stopped watching TV for two reasons: (1) I've become a certified computer nerd, and (2) There are too many reality shows in every channel that I look at.

Today, as I was eating lunch, I channeled my tv to MTV. The station was showing a season finale of "The Ashlee Simpson" show, I decided to watch it since I (sometimes) enjoy watching the lifestyles of the rich and famous.

After the show, another reality tvs came on. It was titled "Trippin'". It was produced and starred by Cameron Diaz, one of the most highly paid actors in Hollywood. At first, I thought it was going to be another one of those 'celebrity life' reality shows. But then, as the intro credits rolled in, she introduced it as a show that will show countries, which she and a group of her personal friends will travel into, that are environmentally endangered.

Here's the show's taglines:

Cameron Diaz and a group of her close, personal friends think globally and act globally too as they travel to unlikely getaways...from Chile to Yellowstone, on a quest to safeguard the environment. No Hotel, no Pilates instructors...they will pack their own bags and carry them into the wild.

The show got me interested because I myself have become interested in travelling, but truth be told, I was only interested in the words "travelling to see" not in the words, "travelling for a cause/reason". But after watching one episode of that show, I started to think about "travelling for a reason".

We usually read or hear stories about people who travel into "third world" countries to see what's going on in the culture, environment, or lifestyle of those countries and when they come back home, they have this new sense of thinking or well being caused by observing and experiencing first hand what the lifestyle of such countries have. They start to think that the dramas that they go through in life is nothing compared to the people in those countries. I, myself, have heard a number of stories and each time I hear them, they never fail to inspire me.

As you scroll through the right pane of this blog, you will see a list of websites of the countries I would like to travel into "when I grow up". If you go through that list, you will see that they are countries that are travelled by many because of their richness of "places to see". I'm starting to contemplate of adding another list of countries, countries that are less fortunate in the realm of "places to see" but more fortunate in the realm of culture, diversity and people who considers -technology and city life- as unfamiliar territory to them.


Richmond Beach Saltwater Park

After I took this picture, I thought it was a photograph gone bad. But when I uploaded it, I thought of it as a painting. HEH.