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I just got finished watching Fantastic Four. It was a funny movie. HEHE. It actually has more comedic touch to it than action. OH! and let's not forget Julian McMahon and Chris Evans. TWO of the hottest guys that live in this planet.

So yesterday was the official start of my Christmas break. Slept till 1 pm. Got up at 3 pm. Vacuumed. Took my mom to work. Finally got something(s) for my aunt, who I got on our Christmas "bunutan" thing, thanks to my mom. Rented Fantastic Four. Went home and wrapped the something(s) up. Then, off I went again to pick up my mom.

What a day.

Tomorrow I shall go back to work. I'm working at Macy's right now as a seasonal helper. I'm part of the merchandise support team. It's a hard job for me considering I have to be on my feet for 7 hours. And being on my feet for that long drives my back and my legs nuts. Oh well. I'm just fulfilling one of my wants on my Christmas wishlist. HEHE. Plus it's something to do during the break. I really don't want to live like a bum for 2 weeks. I'll go nuts figuring out what to do BESIDES tinkering with my computer.

Anywho, I've been working on a meditating spell right now. One that can ward off "false" feelings. So, whenever you tend to feel "false" feelings, just tell yourself that the person you're having "false" feelings for is GAY. Tell yourself that a million times and THAT problem will surely go away. I SWEAR to YOU. It's that simple.. hehehehe..

My father will be arriving on Wednesday. My aunt and I will pick him up. DAMN. 3 parents in one house. GRRR. It's gonna be hard for me to stay out late now. HRMM. Minsan ko lang naman ginagawa e.. K lang. HEHEHE..

OK. I shall leave you with a picture thing of me and Curly. Did this during the week of Thanksgiving.

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It's so sad that one can't seem to conceal or guard his/her heart from the external elements that could hurt it.

False feelings. Presumptious feelings. "Crawly" feelings.

These elements are what I am talking about.

It's just so sad how we can fall for them and then suddenly one day it hits you that they're not true or that they're merely an act of pretentiousness done by your heart to you.

Why is it so hard to guard your heart from these elements? Because we seem to have the need to feel these feelings? Because we need to feel them in order to feel good about ourselves? Because we need them to assure ourselves that THAT person might actually like us?

Baket pa naimbento ang mga ganong klaseng feelings? I know that I've talked about this in this blog a million times now, but I guess ngayon lang ako napuruhan ng todohan tungkol sa ganyan.

During work today, I asked God if He could guard my heart against these elements. While I was asking him, I felt so sad because the only time that I go and talk to him is when I have problems.

I HATE THOSE FEELINGS! SALOT SILA SA BUHAY NG MGA TAO!


I just feel sad and bad right now. I need a place to vent out.

BAH HUMBUG!

CHRISTMAS!! COME NOW!! PLEASE!!! I beg.. because I'm slowly becoming a scrooge... just take a look at this:


words by: Natalie Imbruglia

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For five days, I've been trying so hard to focus my attention to Biochemistry.

There are a lot of things to study. A lot of memorization and understanding. There's a lot.

I'm having a hard time focusing. I don't know which topic I should target first.

I'm trying my best to be positive. I really don't want to think negative in times like this.

God please help me.

There IS beauty in BREAKING DOWN.

No matter how much you hold it in, it'll always find a way to come out of you.

What If..

Curly suddenly runs away from our house. Of course we would be hysterical and everything. We think of ways of how to get him back --- Flyers, police, talk to people.. the whole nine yards. We do them, of course.

Then one day, as I'm typing my philosophy essay in our living room, I see a guy, through the close blinds, coming up to our front door holding Curly through a leash. I jump up, run to the door and open it. I giddily pet Curly. I stand up, look at this guy's face to thank him. Then, I see how cute this guy was.

Man... if only that can happen.... I swear, right now I'm thinking of getting Curly lost in order for some cute guy to rescue him and give him back to us.

Of course, this is just me dreaming.

hayy.. if only.