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How To Make The Most Out Of Your Spring Break

1. When you're going through a lot of drama, i.e. messed up priorities; messed up grades @ school; messed up values; messed up head; messed up love(?)life; etc., and you don't want to cry over them, arm yourself with a lot of cash and go to the mall.

2. When there's nothing better to do at home, go out and grab a bite at your nearest fastfood chain.

3. If you haven't seen your relatives (your sister or your brother, for instance) for a while, schedule a meet with them. Have some coffee, eat dinner, shop, have a movie marathon, and talk to them about the boy who makes your heart skip

4. Spring Break doesn't mean a break from your friends. Spring Break means hanging out with them. Go to the beach, have a spontaneous bbq cookout, and enjoy a week's worth of bonding without school getting in the way.

5. Do RnR with MnM (Translation: Rest and Relax with Me and Myself). Go shopping, watch DVDs, tinker with your computer, catch up with Friendster or Myspace (Do TWICE the catching up, since you're on a break), listen to music, download music, drive around --- do whatever that satisfies your fancy.

Hope you college guys and girls had a fun and restful break.



Richmond Beach Saltwater Park
March 25, 2005

I'd Be Lying If I Said I'm OK

If y'all read the melodramatic entry I wrote before this one, you'll know what I mean by the title.

Yes, I'm still not OK, but at least I had some time to contemplate about things that has been bugging me and to calm my nerves down a notch. Unfortunately, contemplating and calming down has gotten a bit too expensive for me. You see, last Monday, I went shopping at Alderwood Mall. I ate my heart out at Forever 21, Wet Seal, Icing, and Jamba Juice. Yet, Alderwood wasn't enough for me, so I went to Northgate mall to oogle some more at Rave and Payless.

The next day, I thought I had given up on shopping. But no, I went to Ross (right by Northgate place) and fell in love with a ton of tops. HAA.. Too bad I blew all my money the day before so I only bought two tops there. Then, I went to Marshalls and saw another cute top and of course, being the impulsive me that I am, I bought it too.

So, it has been an interesting two days. Two days of contemplation, exercising (my legs and my wallet), and eating my heart out on the cutesy tops that my stores sell. Although, I'm broke as a bum, it did a lot of help in lowering my stress level.

"Tough, you think you've got the stuff
You're telling me and anyone
You're hard enough
You don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight"
--- Sometimes You Can't Make It On Your Own, U2

Last note,

I saw my winter quarter grades today and can I just say, how interesting it is that my Chem Lab grade is higher than my Chem subject grade. HEH.

When Everything Goes Tough.. I Get Bitchier..

Disclaimer:

UBER-PERSONAL ANG ENTRY NA 'TO. KAYA KUNG IISIPAN NYO KO NA ANG SIRA-SIRA KO PARA MAGLAGAY NG ISANG NAPAKAPERSONAL NA ENTRY.. WELL.. I DON'T GIVE A SH*T.. BLOG KO 'TO AND I CAN WRITE WHATEVER I WANT IN IT.

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I'll write this entry in Tagalog, because it will sound MUCH better.

Unfair ang buhay. Alam nating lahat yun. Hindi lahat ng bagay puwedeng mapasaatin. Hindi lahat ng bagay puwedeng mangyari according to our standards. Hindi lahat ng bagay makukuha sa iyak, sa galit o sa lungkot.

Ganon ang buhay e. Minsan masaya, minsan malungkot. Minsan parang gusto mo ng mamatay, minsan parang gusto mong mabuhay ng matagal.

Maraming bagay ang gumugulo sa isip ko ngayon, mga bagay na hindi ko dapat bigyan ng matinding pansin dahil sila'y mababaw na bagay lamang. Ngunit minsan, gusto kong lunurin ang sarili ko sa kanila. Gusto kong gawan ng paraan para mawala sila sa utak ko.

Walang-wala ako ngayon. Nawawala sa road. Kung baga, nasa dead end ako. Wala akong mapuntahan. Walang priorities na sinusunod, tapos ang mga values ko sa buhay parang wala nang saysay.

Ang dami dami ko nang pagkakamaling nagawa. Mga pagkakamali na dapat kong ihingi ng tawad sa Diyos, pero di ko ginagawa. Ang dami dami kong iniisip na mali, pero hindi ako humihingi ng tulong sa Diyos para alisin ang "malisyoso" kong pagiisip.

Sinasarili ko lahat ng problema. Hindi ako humihingi ng tulong. Kahit gusto kong umiyak hindi ko ginagawa dahil ayokong makita ng mga tao na malungkot ako o isipin nila na nagiinarte ko. Alam ko sinabi ko na wala akong pakelam sa mga iniisip sakin ng mga tao, pero sorry, nagpakaplastic lang ako, me pakelam din ako.. ng konti.

Sinabi nga sakin ng isa kong kaibigan, "pag sinasarili mo yang mga problema mo, walang mangyayari sayo.. kelangan mong isabog yan.. kungdi ikaw ang talo sa huli". Ewan ko. Minsan mas gusto ko na lang kimkimin kesa sa magsabi ng problema, mas feel ko yun e.

Sabi nung lalake dun sa movie na "Perfect Opposites":

"Why do girls always need to talk things through? Why can't they just keep the problems to themselves and just die of a heart attack?"

Baligtad ako. Mas gusto ko pa atang mamatay sa sakit sa puso kesa sa ilabas ko ang problema ko sa mundo.

Relatively New Things in My Life (backlogged entry)

iBook G4 Laptop


Ibook G4
Originally uploaded by angeloraine.

It's the laptop that I bought out of spontaneity and rushness, but all is worth it because it hasn't done anything to anger my technologically-challenged self. Well, there's actually one downside, the Mac version of Yahoo Messenger, sucks. The PC version is so much better with all the animated emoticons, the Launchcast radio, and the games you can play with whoever you are conversing with. It's also not voice capable. How sucky is that?

As for my PC, I haven't sold it yet. HEHE.. I'm having separation anxiety syndrome.. hehehe.. excuses, excuses.. I'm just not paying that much attention to selling it. Hopefully during spring break, I'll be busy hunting down buyers.

iPod Mini


Mini Ipod
Originally uploaded by angeloraine.

My cousin Inee both this for her husband, then her husband wanted the newer 6gb version, so she proposed to sell this to me. I caved, because it's blue and it's the iPod that I always wanted.

Spring/Summer Clothes

I've been shopping non-stop for the past month now. It's a good therapy for my damaged brain and aching heart. But I'm already feeling the day that I will be broke. I'm telling you, it's getting close.

Adobe Photoshop Elements and 7.0v

I have both software installed in my notebook, but I haven't played with it since the day I've installed both. But since spring break is coming, I might as well take advantage of them. Hopefully I don't get lazy. But who gets lazy when you have a computer sitting on your lap instead of you sitting in front of a computer?? Get the picture?

Current Obsessions:

Songs... Songs.. and more Songs.. Seriously, I have spent so much dough on iTunes. I'm hooked! I swear! Thank God, I don't bring money with me when I went to BestBuy last Wednesday. HAAYYY.. Music is life, I'm telling you. It's life.

Spring Break Fever

Since I'm not going anywhere out of state, I might as well enjoy my one-week break on going places such as Greenlake Park, Downtown, and University Village. I hope the weather is not gloomy. I want some sun (sans the wind) in Seattle!

Lastly,

The song "Obsession" by Frankie J. suits me well. HEH. Well, technically I'm not obsessed with something. I'm just.. how do you say it? Endeared? Emotionally attached? Infatuated? Hmm.. who cares??

"Amor , no es amor (if this aint love)

More than my feelings (what am i doing wrong)

Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)

Its just an illusion that i have in my heart"

PAHABOL!!!

To all graduating students this year (high school and college),

CONGRATULATIONS!!

Special Attention to: Nica, Joelle, and Ginett .... Congrats sa inyo! =)

My OTHER Blogs

I decided to make separate blogs of my two passions: music and photography.

Sound Off

- This blog will feature playlists of songs that I constantly listen to and will also contain lyrics of songs that I play on my Ipod repeatedly.

Photo-Lage

- This blog will feature photographs that I've taken from the past, the present and maybe future ones. It's sorta like a photojournal. It's my replacement to my deviantart page.

Both are still underconstruction. But tomorrow, after my Chem final, I will start tinkering with them.

I hope you stay tune for them.

Heaven vs. Earth

"This world is not our home; we are looking forward to our everlasting home in heaven."

--- The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren

In the beginning, this world was pure. But when Eve ate the forbidden fruit, impurity started to become prevalent. The world became a much colossal place. It became rigid and shallow. It became a zone for wars and terror. It became a breeding ground for sensationalized "breaking news". It became materialistic and less thankful. It became a place where hurt and loneliness surpasses the feeling of happiness and freedom.

This world has become a painful place to live in ever since sin was born. There's too much stress, too much pain and too much pressure. Time here is always wasted on emotions that are superficial. Energy is always wasted on overanalyzing things that are not suppose to be overanalyzed.

Heaven, on the other hand, is where clarity strikes. It is a place where happiness and freedom prevail. It is a place where sin no longer exist. It is a place where you can see God smiling at you saying, "you belong better here than you do on Earth."

I want to see Heaven.

. . . kasi sa Heaven, hindi ako masasaktan
. . . kasi sa Heaven, walang gulo, walang away
. . . kasi sa Heaven, nandon si God para bantayan ako ng mabuti
. . . kasi sa Heaven ko lang mararamdaman ang tunay na kasiyahan

I know there's a reason why I'm still living on this planet. I know that God wants me and the rest of the people in this world to feel and learn from every worst feeling this world has to offer.

I can't wait to go to Heaven. I can't wait to go home. I can't wait to be happy forever.

I Love Spring Movies!

Star Wars III: Revenge of the Sith
May 16



Sin City
April 1

I want them, but I can't have them

At least at the moment . . .

+ Starbucks Toffee Nut Frappucino
+ Starbucks Decaf Toffee Nut Latte
+ Pho (AGAIN!)
+ A new layout for this blog.

I don't want to work today. I'm lazy. I just want to go home and sleep and then just come back to school to attend my Organic Chemistry night class.

I just want this quarter to end. I want SPRING BREAK! Too bad I'm not going anywhere during that week. If I had the chance (and the $$) I would fly my ass to California and visit my cousins there. I haven't seen them since my uncle's (dad's bro) funeral, which was two years ago.

What else can I blab about?

OH! I have 17 credits registered for next quarter. Suicidal don't you think? HEH. A math, a science, and a design class. WHOOPEE!! 17 credits!!

Glass-Shattering Experience

For the most part of my life, I have not experience any major or minor physical injuries. The extent of injury that I only suffered through was a mere scratch on my leg, from tripping on something, or cramps, when I stretch too much.

But today, it was more than a scratch on the leg and crampy arms. They were two open wounds, one on my right forefinger and the other on my right foot; red marked scratches all over my left and right arm (well, most of the marks were on my right hand); and red marked scratches on my right leg.

Here's the flow chart version of the event that caused my injuries:

I was taking a shower ----> I opened the shower door to get a facial wash ----> I accidently slammed the shower door ----> I finished showering ----> I open shower doors, but to my dismay they won't open (gliders were apparently out of place) ----> I tried re-aligning the doors ----> While re-aligning, I suddenly got all claustrophobic (is that spelled right?), consequently making me impatient with the non-moving doors ----> I pressured one door to slide ----> CRASH! Shards of glass came raining down all over me.

Thank God, they only screwed up my arms, hands and legs.

I guess the statistic is true: The most accident prone area in the house is the bathroom.

Hmm.. I think that experience was a sign. HEH.. I gotta start being extra careful when driving.

To people with glass shower doors: BE GENTLE WITH THEM! DON'T SLAM THE DAMN DOORS! OR ELSE . . .

One-Two Step

i take one step..away
and i find myself coming back
to you
my one and only
one and only you...

--- Your Song by Parokya Ni Edgar

It's not only a "one step" for me but it's a hundred steps and somehow I always find myself coming back. Two hundred steps back.

It's hard to step back when something is always around you.

It's hard to move back when you know that that something can tear you up in just a blink of an eye, or in words or even in action.

It's always a "push and pull" situation, I don't know where I should stand.

"It hurts when reality strikes your back. But what hurts the most is that you didn't do anything to prevent reality from hitting you hard."


I have to start writing again. I edited this entry 5 times today because of all the grammatical flaws I encountered everytime I reread it. It's amazing what three months of freewriting (meaning BSing my entries for the past 3 months) can do to my writing skills. Wait, scratch that, do I even have writing skills?

It's a wet Wednesday morning

The alarm woke me up at an ungodly hour today, 6 am. But I didn't hit the off botton until it was about 6:45am. HEH. It's raining today. A day to be reflective.

Anyway, I don't have my Botany lecture class at the usual 11:30a, since the Wednesday lab group is taking a tour at the UW Botany place at around 12am. The only day when I actually wanted to attend lecture and she cancels class. Blech. Anyway, at least I have time to go to the open lab and scan through the slides for next Thursday's lab practical, which I have get a 3.0+ grade on. I haven't even looked at my tabulated grades for that class yet, I'm too afraid to do so, too afraid to see a failing one. WAAAHHH.

Tomorrow, I have my final midterm for my organic chemistry class. Another test that I have to ace, or at least, a test that I need to get an 80% on. I don't really want to have two failed midterms (I bummed my 2nd midterm) for that class. I want to get at least a 3.0 (or maybe 3.3) grade for that class, or else my fate in the universities I applied for transfer will be flushed out the toilet.

After my lab lecture for org.chem (which took forever to finish) last night, I had to rush to Red Robbins to join my friends because we were celebrating Cess' birthday. Her birthday was actually last Monday, but since some of us couldn't attend a Monday shindig, we decided to do it on Tuesday. Anyway, like I said, I rushed to the restaurant to join what was left of the party. They were eating already when I arrived. I didn't have the energy nor the mood to order food anymore, so I just watched them eat. But when dessert came, I just had to jump in and eat some, mud pie ala carte baby!

My head ached last night, too much fast food perhaps? HEHE. Anyway, I feel ok now. Thank God.

Have to go and eat na because I'm going to school early. I'm going to study there. I somehow can't study in my own room anymore. Don't know why.

To everyone who's anyone who has finals coming up: May GOD grant you determination and wisdom.