Only GOD Knows Why

Only God Knows Why
by Kid Rock

I've been sittin' here Tryin' to find myself
I get behind myself I need to rewind myself
Lookin' for the payback Listen for the playback
They say that every man bleeds just like me

-- Every person has the experience of struggling to find what they want to do with their lives. I'm going through that experience right now and I know a few people who are also going through it too. It feels good knowing that you're not alone in the struggle to figure out what you really want. It feels good to know that there are people in this world who are going through the same thing that you are going through.

And I feel like number one Yet I'm last in line
I watch my youngest son And it helps to pass the time
I take too many pills It helps to ease the pain
I made a couple of dollar bills still I feel the same

-- Sometimes my self esteem can go down the drain when things just don't go the way that I want them to go. I find things that could temporarily cure such insanity, but in the end, when the cure wears off, I'm still knee deep in sh*t.

Everybody knows my name They say it way out loud
A lot of folks fuck with me It's hard to hang out in crowds
I guess that's the price you pay To be some big shot like I am
Out strecthed hands and one night stands Still I can't find love

-- I have experienced being treated like s**t by some people, yet I still manage to put up with them and their s**t.

And when your walls come tumbling down
I will always be around
And when your walls come tumbling down
I will always be around

People don't know bout the things I say and do
They don't understand about the shit that I've been through
It's been so long since I've been home
I've been gone, I've been gone for way too long

-- People are judgmental. It's one of the sad sad truths that I've learned in this life. They assume things about you when they don't even have any clue about who you are and what you are and the most annoying part about it, is that they don't take the time to get to know who you are before judging you.

Maybe I forgot all the things I've missed
Oh somehow I know there's more to life than this
I said it too many times And I still stand firm
You get what you put in And people get what they deserve

-- I've messed around a lot which resulted to a lot of consequences. I've f****d up twice and sometimes thrice. I sometimes don't learn, but most of the time I do. I'm thankful that I'm surrounded by people who makes me realize how sh*tty I become when I'm messed up.

Still I ain't seen mine No I ain't seen mine
I've been giving just ain't been gettin'
I've been walking that thin line
So I think I'll keep on walking With my head held high
I'll keep moving on and only God knows why

-- I have given a lot to people around me. I don't expect to receive anything in return. But sometimes some people takes advantage of that. But, I still give.

Only God.....Only God
Only God knows why
Only God....knows....why, why, why oh only God knows why

-- Yeah, Only HE knows the why, the what and the how in my life. I've been lagging behind with my spiritual journey. I haven't read the Bible for quite a while now. It's sad because I remembered before that the only thing that kept me sane constantly is the word of God and God himself. Before, I always end my day by reading the Bible and praying to God. Now, I end my nights by surfing the net, blogging, and doing things that are so mundane and so shallow.

I realized that the things that I'm going through right now, all the crap that I'm feeling and thinking are due to me not wanting God to intervene with my life. I've been shutting Him out, not wanting Him to help me deal with my personal struggles.

I have messed up perspectives, which makes me look like a hypocrite. And now I know the reason behind all of it, it's because I did not want God to be there to straighten and strengthen them out.

Take me to the river eh
Wont you Take me to the river, hey hey heyeah