one class

some people will say that i have it easy. they're right, i do have it easy. but i don't want it to be this easy. damn, i think i miss school already and to think i haven't "walk" the "walk" yet. in three months time i will only have one class to challenge myself with and i don't think it will be a piece of cake. the easiest thing to say is, "i will have it easy, this is just one class, i will have all my attention focused on this class", but really if one is to think hard about it, it won't be easy at all. i will have to double to focus that i had when i was taking three classes because one class is so easy to take advantage of. 

damn it, why didn't i take this class before? 

i am still praying, wishing and hoping for a miracle in the job department that will cover me for the next two months. 

i am still obsessing with photography and its quirks. This is what happens when you abandon a hobby for two years, i tend to embrace it so tightly that sometimes i end up "glueing" myself to it in the process. my only defense is, it's my only form of de-stressing or my form of escaping from reality. 

my spring break wasn't all that, stupid sun won't come out. but here's a head scratcher: it snowed yesterday. Snow in spring, i like it. 

april next week. good gosh. 2 more months. so quick. 

purging mental diarrhea

One thing that I learned (and still learning about it..) about life is that you can never be too prepared. You can plan and plan all you want but there's always something that you will miss. Guaranteed. But one thing that you will also learn from that lesson is you have to adjust yourself to those things that can or may deviate you from your plan. Take the lesson and apply it to yourself in the future. 

I am in the process of looking for a "job". "Real" jobs seem to not come my way because my vacation time seems to "kill" it. Anyway, I think there's always a reason for something and that I have to get used to that idea. 

I am waiting for my 120 films to arrive. TAGAL. I want to take the Holga out. I actually shot 2 rolls on it already, one 120 BW and one 135 for sprockets. Have to have it develop tomorrow to see the results. 

My spring break is almost done. I wonder how weird it will be attending only one class. Anyway, I have to get used to it, I don't want to take advantage of "all" the time that I have and forget the fact that this one class is really important for me, career-wise that is. 

I am also going to start studying for the medschool test. This class that I will be taking will prompt me to study for it. I am planning to take the test probably sometime in September. I have to think of ways to really cement my status as a candidate for medical school. I wish I didn't took the phlebotomy class now instead of a year ago. I feel like it will go to waste since I can't seem to get a hold of a job that doesn't require experience or externship.

Anyway, I have 3 more months before graduation time. 

God, please give me the job. PLEASE? Please tell the hiring people that I'm not only interested in what they have and that I am also a people-person, willing to interact and be friends with them. PLEASEE????

If you don't, it's ok too. I am gonna take it as you telling me that I need to chill and just look for a campus job. But it'll be nice if I have that job though (ok i know.must have FAITH). 

 

officially a graduate

grades are out..

The long nights and hours of doing lab reports paid off. YEAAAHHH!!!

Could've done better in Biochem, but it's passing.

If I had the average score in the first exam in my instrumental analysis class, i would've gotten a better grade.. 

BUT ALL IS WELL. 

INORGANIC CHEM MADE THIS QUARTER WORTH IT FOR ME!!!

o mi gossshh!!! my highest chemistry grade ever in the university. i am so proud of myself!!!

YEAAAHH!!!

things to look forward to after 12:00 pm today

1. I AM OFFICIALLY DONE WITH B.S. CHEM.

2. PHOTO-GRA-PHY! 

- RONALD BOG HERE I COME!!

- SHORELINE CENTER HERE I COME!!

3. MY LAUNDRY

4. SPRING BREAK!!!

5. WOODLAND PARK ZOO!!

excited, nervous, worried, happy, jumpy all rolled into one.. 

after tomorrow, i will give myself a pat in the back.

The Dalai Lama

He's coming to UW-Seattle on April 14, 2008 and will have a talk at Hec Ed Pavillion. I am disappointed that I am not going to be able to come (tix for students are complimentary!!) because the program starts at 3pm and ends at 5. I have a class that day from 12:30-3:20p

Haayy.. stupid middle of the day class.. 

Dalai Lama at UW-Seattle

Ces/Venus -- If you guys are going, let me know how it was.. 

Here's what the next two weeks will look like for me

Anyone wanna trade places with me?? I swear it will be fun!! =)

Saturday (03/08)

- Tutoring from 8:30 - 4pm
- from 4pm - the middle of Sunday morning: will be doing lab reports and papers and studying for two exams

Sunday (03/09)

- 7 am (or 9am) - church
- 9am - onwards - time spent for eating, lab reports, paper, studying for Biochem exam 3 and Inorg Chem Lab final exam. hope to finish the "paper" by this day.

Monday (03/10)

only have one class this day;
will be doing lab reports and studying for exams

Tuesday (03/11)

- final lab report due for my Instrumental Analysis class
- no classes this day, so it will be spent doing lab reports for my Inorg Chem Lab class.
- studying for exam 3 of Biochem and final exam of Inorg Chem Lab

Wednesday (03/12)

- Arene Lab Report due for Inorg Chem Lab. (25% worth of my grade for that class)
- do another lab report that is also 25% of my grade for that class
- study for lab exam
- study for biochem
- 12:30-4:30pm Phosphor lab

Thursday (03/13)
- 8:30 am (or 9:30am) - exam on Inorg Lab class
- study for biochem
- still be doing a lab report

Friday (03/14)
- 8-9:30am - Biochem exam 3
- 9:30 - 10:30 - class
-10:30 - 12:30 - working on Linkage isomers lab report (25% of my grade!!!!!)
- 12:30 - Linkage Isomers lab report due
- 12:30 - 4:30p - Phosphor Lab NMR; check out for InorgChem lab
- also due is my paper for my Tutor/Credit/Educ 401 class.
- will be doing lab report for my Phosphor lab.
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03/15- 03/20

These days will be spent studying furiously for my final two exams:

Biochem
and
Instrumental Analysis

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03/17-03/21 - FINAL WEEK, MY LAST WEEK OF UNDERGRAD WORK

EXCITATION

i am so excited.
i got 3 more weeks till my university work is over.

i got 3 more months till i walk in my toga.

i got 3 more months till i go home and chill with the 'barkada'.

I AM SO EXCITED..

Three Weeks and Counting

I have the "senioritis" effect on me right now. I'm trying my best to fend it off. I am excited to be done.

Right now I am hoping and praying for an interview in the jobs that I applied for the past week. I had an interview in Seattle Cancer Care last Monday, I don't know what the verdict is, but hopefully it would be a plus. I don't know how I did in the interview, for some reasons, I feel like I don't do well on interviews. I tend to linger and talk a lot. Hay..

Anyway..

back to lab report.

Films and staying committed

Had the chance to try out the edmonds photo pro lab. they did a pretty good job of developing the film considering both of it were expired.

i'll post some pictures when i'm done editing them.

it cost me $16 for developing and scan to CD. i think it was all worth it considering how i'm just trying film photography out again.

and about staying committed -- i had made a "picasso" like collage in today's tutoring for my pipeline class. it was pretty cool and i think i'll hang it up on my wall to remind me of how i should stay focus whenever i'm doing school work.

all of the pictures shall be posted soon.

one of the boys

I can't remember the last time that I had this "time"..
actually i do.. but i don't know.. didn't feel like it was those true rational moments spent with guys who actually care about you and you care about.

kaya namimiss ko yung mga kaibigan kong lalake sa pilipins e.
masayang kasama, mga harot at higit sa lahat madaling kausap.
walang pakeme. walang kaartehan.

i have yet to find guy friends around here who I can have the same relationship as I have with my guy friends in the pilipins.



this is all of them.
kulang pa nga yang mga yan e.
yung bestfriend kong lalake asa campo.
yung isa nagtratrabaho siguro.
mga mababait 'tong mga 'to. sapaw na sapaw ang kabaitan sa pagiging loko.
kaya nga miss ko na sila e.
hay. promise ko sa sarili ko, magpapapicture ako kasama lang sila pag uwi ko.

"CAS"

I have it.. hihihihihi.. mostly on vivitar cameras..
went to goodwill store today and found them there..

i also learned a lesson today:

GO TO GOODWILL BEFORE YOU GO TO EBAY.

hihihihi..

now I have to find some expired films..

Pictures

while i live vicariously through other people's photos taken with their lomo cameras, i live now in the world of photoshop, trying to tweak some photos to look like pictures taken with lomo cameras.





Camera: Canon SX100 IS
Inspiration: Flickr Lomo Pool

revised BIRTHDAY/GRADUATION WISHLIST

- $$ for Philippine trip

- $$ for this cameras:

colorsplash
fisheye (Urban Outfitters sells the blue fish eye camera)

this is to relive my passion for photography. ever since i bought my new camera i've been itching to do it again.

- a job (any kind will do right now)

- flying colors during my graduation

- sunny day on my graduation date

I'm getting pissed off with my recollection of freshman chemistry stuff. Simple balancing of oxidation-redox reaction I can't even do. GGGRRRRR...

THIS IS WHY I DON'T LIKE GETTING SICK WHEN SCHOOL'S AROUND!!

on the flip side of things...




it's my new toy, my old camera's replacement. I haven't really fully played with it yet but from the stuff that I already uploaded, it's looking pretty darn nice. I'll get the chance to maximize it's capacity once the memory card for it arrives, hopefully before the twins' birthday party this Saturday.

ohhh.. did I mention it was black? hahahaha..

my chemistry 'non-cookbook' lab class starts its first experiment tomorrow. i've been trying to read the safety issues and the procedure. This lab class is a bit scary because of the accident stories (2 stories to be exact) that was told to us by the TAs/prof/manual that happened because of not following the safety procedures.

anyway, i'm excited for that lab, it seems like it would be the first chem lab that will not show the full procedure of each experiments. students have the chance to figure out what to do based on knowledge and readings. exciting and daunting at the same time since figuring a procedure on our own can be grueling and frustrating, but it's all base on fun, knowledge and learning. plus, it's a real world thing, everything can't be spoonfed to us as they say.

--

music these days is pure crap. no one is making good music, every single song that repeats over and over the radio are made by martians. where are the good musicians?

i pity my ipod because it's not really getting the attention that it needs.

i had an accident late this year. it was my fault. i think after all the sayings and precautionary tales that i have received i have learned much. but one thing that they don't know is how much guilt i felt and stupidness i felt. at the time of the accident i have felt already that it was my fault. i didn't know how it was but i knew. i knew how things can skyrocket especially with my own insurance.

two times that i have been to an accident and twice that i cried and felt really bad getting in it. it wasn't fucking awesome.

i already received many tips on how to drive in the freeway and also in the city. and i am going to apply it.

and i will be careful.

if i don't i know that it will be the BUS for me or walk or have people drive me to wherever. and i really don't want that.

I passed Intro to Biochem!

and i'm so freakin happy about that..

one more quarter at UW. one more pre-req for med school.

then, GRADUATION!!

then, the complete real world.

then, maybe, med school.

my life right now consists of a holiday paying job, a style book by one of the most stylish person in this world that I know and my iBook.

In 2008, my life will contain many many many trips and hardships. But it's all good, it will all be worth it in the end.

I don't have much to say but,


MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

=)

CHRISTMAS WISHLIST

which also applies to my birthday and my graduation. hehehehe..

1) Steve Madden Riding boots

-been looking for a cheap one in EBAY... but the cheap ones get taken so quickly.. grrr
- This one is on sale in Nordstroms tried on a 6.5 but it was too small, so I'm guessing I am a seven.

2) Red coat

- size XS or S - pea coat or trench coat that go up to the half-thigh/thigh-half

3) The elusive Patrick Robinson for Target dress.

4) Christian Louboutin peep toe pumps in beige (riiigghhtt.. tried it on for the first at Barney's in Downtown Pacific Place, o mi gulay, it feels so good on the feet.. )

5) plane ticket to Philippines

6) $$ for Boracay/Batangas with friends in the Philippines

7) $$ towards my Black Macbook fund (which I am starting to build)

My warranty for my current Ibook is expiring this month. Hopefully after this month the book will fly solo with no sickness till the time I decide to purchase a new one.

8) For me to drive the 'good drive'. My latest accident wasn't too peachy with my insurance. I want to learn how to drive well in the freeway.

9) A hospital job - phlebotomist/chem technician/ekg taker.. preferably in Childrens Hospital

10) Vintage boots - only I can find

11) Memory foam pillow - not the contour one. the actual huggable pillow that conforms to your hug

12) starbucks GC

I think this is it

ADDITIONAL!!!!

13) SONY PSP!!!!
++ ULTIMATE MARVEL NEMESIS PSP, TOMB RAIDER, ULTIMATE ALLIANCE, MORTAL KOMBAT UNCHAINED GAMES

:(

I feel like I'm cursed in lab class right now. IT doesn't seem to miss one class where I don't make any mistakes, miscalculations or putting the wrong reagent in the mixture.

GAAAHH..

ok.. so i know I'm not suppose to think this way about this lab. i have to stay positive.

then again, how can one stay positive amidst all the stupidness and retardation that one is feeling everytime she is in the class?

GAAAHHH!!!

WE have a TREE!!

(me opening the front door of our house) ...

Aunt: "Oh! We have a tree in our house!"

Me (confused about a woman standing by my mom's bedroom door and my aunt's words) : "We have a Christmas tree already?"

Aunt (laughing): "No!! C'mere and look"

(me walking towards the dining room and seeing this part of the tree inside the house)

Me: "OH... THHHAAATT KIND OF TREE."

HEHEHEHE.. yeah so that was funny to me. But this happened after a windstorm that hit Seattle two weeks ago. Quite fun. Well, not really. IT was quite scary. But on the upside, hot firemen came to our house. yehehehehe.. well one of them is hot, the other two were a bit old already.