May sinabi/ginawa sayo ang isang tao na nakasakit sa damdamin mo. Pero instead na magalit ka sa taong yun, tinawanan mo na lang sya, at nagkunwari ka na lang na hindi ka naapektuhan.
You do it everytime. You pretend like as if it's just a small thing when really it's a big thing for you. You pretend that it's nothing when it's something.
You pretend because you don't want to make a big deal. You pretend because you don't want to cry. You pretend because you don't want to expose yourself. You pretend because you don't want to become vulnerable.
But don't you think it's tiring? Don't you think that it's tiring to keep pretending? Don't you think it's tiring to keep storing feelings of betrayal, of hurt, and of rejection inside you and pretend that they didn't exist in your life at all?
Why is it so easy for us to help other people with their problems when the problems we have ourselves we can't solve? Why is it so easy for us to ask our friends to pour out their problems to us, when we ourselves can't even pour our own problems to them?
We're born hypocrites. We tell people who are sad to cheer up, to be happy and to not let the sadness rule their lives. But while we do that, deep inside our hearts, we are in knee deep s***. We tell others to be happy, yet we can't tell ourselves to be happy. We can't tell ourselves to not let the sadness ruin happy moments in our lives.
It's exhausting. But what can you do? If you don't pretend, you don't know if you either lose or win. It's a lose-lose situation. You pretend, you feel crappy. You don't pretend, you don't know how much consequences of you not pretending is gonna make.
What a life.
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