Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Picture Post I

01/26/07: The Shoes that Hurt my Feet

This shoes made my feet suffered that day. I had scabs on the sole of my feet. It was crazy. But I learned an important lesson that day.

Never buy shoes that don't fit you well, NO MATTER HOW CUTE THEY ARE.

LOL. I'm crazy that way.

That day was also the day of my first PChem Midterm. So yeah, the end of my day was pretty much a day of craziness.

I still have yet to get the results of my test. Hmm.. I wonder..

Sunday, January 28, 2007

Photos are sad.

I just remembered that I took a picture from last Friday that I thought I would post here. But, I haven't got the chance to upload it. ARGGHHH.. I'm losing touch I'm telling you. I owe Photography a lot these days.

Errmm..

Saturday, January 27, 2007

My Classes. My Business.


February 6. My first midterm in Rome's History and Art History.

I'm quite scared because I have seen the guidelines for review (which is on the left side of this entry.). A lot of it based on memorizing dates (to which I totally hate since.. yeah.. I just don't like memorizing numbers.. except when it comes to Math or Chem of course.. ). Hayyy.. O mi gosh.. I'm scared. But I can't be scared. I took this history class for two reasons. One, for me to learn about the history of Rome, so I won't be an ignorant pompous ass when one day I see myself walking on the streets of Rome seeing all the nice places, and TWO, so I would conquer my apathy against history.

O mi gosh..

I'm really scared.

But um.. I won't be scared. I'm writing our first paper right now. It's about the theme "virtue and vice" within the Roman history. So, techinically, I'm reviewing already.

Hooray!

Ok. Must go back to the paper. I have one week to review. ONE WEEK. AND on top of that, I still need to review for my other classes. I have another book to read for my History of Christianity class. And my PChem professor ain't making life easier for us.

Ok. Must stop complaining.

I haven't got the chance to upload pictures of the new additions to our family. My cousin gave birth to twins. A boy and a girl. I'll upload as soon as the craziness in my life tames down, to which I hope would be after my rome exam next week.

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Life Lessons

Realizing that I am a bit of a freakish, illogical and unreasonable person when I'm mad/high tempered..

ERR.. Menn.. You know it is true. You don't want to be wrong and yet sometimes you still are too stubborn to admit that you're wrong. I don't know if its genetically embedded in a girl's DNA to be prideful. Aren't men suppose to me more egotistical than girls?

Anyway. I've decided to calm my self down and start living a life (with less) pride. I am not sure how that will go because as we all know, pride is the one sin that we all can't beat, unless of course we have a strong heart to beat it.

Monday, January 22, 2007

New Found Glory

Errrmm.. so I'm back here.. hahaha..

anywaaayy.. I'm tired.. I just got done doing my physical chemistry homework.. must review tomorrow because i have midterms coming up.. argghhh.. tomorrow, my cousin will be having her twin babies (joyy!!!!), boy and girl people.. i have a nephew and a niece through my first cousin!!

anyway.. it's gonna be loud and distraction prone in this house in the next month or so. soooo.. I am thinking of making Starbucks in 220th my new home for studying.. ohhhh boyy.. hahahaha..

i have a long day ahead of me tomorrow.. after school and work, i'm gonna go to the hospital to check my new niece and nephew (this is gonna be a toll to write.. ).. ok..

i'm off to fix my stuff..

Saturday, January 13, 2007

Thermochemistry, Early Rome 7 Kings, Romans sees Christians..

- Seattle had another snowstorm.
- Seattle has icy roads.
- I don't like Seattle when it snows during the end of the week.
- Seattle sucks when it snows and freezes below standard temperature.

I'm very whiny right now. I was itching to go out earlier but couldn't because it's so chilly outside AND the roads are covered with ice. BAD to drive on roads that are covered with ice. So I just stayed home and looked for e-coupons for ipods and Tiger OSX (which I had no luck by the way). I'm actually planning to buy a new iPod since I gave my old one to my dad and I'm also planning to buy a new operating system for my iBook since it's long overdue of an upgrade with its OS. I've been having trouble downloading some "10.4 required" apps lately so I have to be upgraded to a 10.4 system.

I've been rather busy again. It's a 3 day weekend (Martin Luther King Day on Monday) and of course, if it's a 3 day weekend, profs love to stack homeworks and readings on you. This quarter I'm taking: History of Christianity, History and Art History of Rome, and the second course of the Physical Chemistry series. So, I have a lot in my hands, LOTS of readings. PLUS, I'm working and planning to volunteer at the hospital. AND I also applied for Phlebotomy Course at North Seattle Comm College. So Yeah... it will be a busy quarter and so much for social life! I have to start getting use to it. I have to stop sleeping through bus rides and sleeping in between classes. It's quite hard to get back in the game when you have been out for a while, but I'm getting the hang of it so far. Next week, I'll probably in it 99.4%. HE. HE.

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Little Snowman 2006
(reminiscent of the snowstorm Seattle had last November 2006)

Sunday, January 07, 2007

I'm sailing off to "neverland".. whatever that means..

Since I'm beginning to be boring and slowly losing my passion over my academics, I'm gonna start posing with the pictures that I took last year that I have uploaded onto another flickr site.

I took this picture last spring with Gene at the Old Ivar's dock. It was pretty nice out there, kinda cold, but nice. I recommend it for people who loves to take picture and for couples who want to see something new in seattle (in case of course you haven't been there)

I like this picture because it depicts ME (the boat) wanting to sail off of
Seattle. I'm not liking Seattle anymore. I don't if it's because of the rain or the vibe here. I don't know.

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Skinny as the new trend?? THEN I must be a Trendy person!

Skinny jeans. Leggings. Tights.

EFF!

I'm not the kind of person to follow trends while it's happening. I usually do that when the trend is OVER, meaning it's no longer a fashion "YES".

I was at the mall today and I saw a pair of leggings in Hollister. 9.90. Yeah. NO! I've been telling my mom and my sister that I'm not buying a pair of leggings for that much amount of money. Heck, I can buy food for two days for that amount of money.

Last Sunday, I improvised on leggings.. since I'm too cheap to buy them. I cut off the foot of my stockings and VOILA! Leggings my friends! Too bad I didn't take a picture. EFF! I'm getting boring.. that's not good..

Anyway....

Monday, January 01, 2007

2006 was fun. 2007 will be cooler.

Discovered new things.

  • I can actually keep my room clean. I re-did the whole layout of my room when my Christmas break started and yeah, I'm kinda digging the new look. Although, I have to accustom or rather train myself to fix my stuff. It gets too crowded in my room when there are too much stuff.

  • I discovered that I have the power to become uber crazy when I'm drunk. It's true, people do the craziest things when they're drunk. AND they also go through the most embarassing things.

  • I discovered that I can make the FIRST move to the things that I want most and HEY, making the first move isn't so bad at all. You actually can get what you want.

  • I've been through phases this year. It was crazy.

Trashed the old things.

  • I trashed some bad vibes around me. It wasn't the nicest thing I've ever done, but at least I got it out of my system AND my environment.

  • I made some people mad AND I made some people think with this ENTRY.


Discovered things about myself and my surroundings.

When people do things that I despise, I realize that I despise it because I myself do the same thing that they do.
I realized that no matter how hard you try, you'll still expect from others.
I realized that nothing in this world can be permanent. It always ends up being messed up.
I learned not to push myself into somewhere I don't belong to.
I learned to watch my back even more.
I learned the power of true friendship.
I learned the art of being passive aggressive.


To the people that I have met, thank you for the lasting impressions you gave me.
To the few that I have hurt, for that I am sorry. I don't expect for things to get back to the way they are, because I know that IT will never will.


Goodluck and God bless with this year everyone.
HAPPY NEW YEAR.


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Saturday, December 30, 2006

i miss my friends.

I just miss the feeling of being really comfortable around people.
People who have known you for quite some time. Oh say.. 8 years? 9 years?
Most of my friends back home are graduating this year. How fast time goes by. I wish I could watch them. I wish I could be there to congratulate them. TO give them a hug for a job well done.
I wish I could be there during reunions. I've missed a lot. One of my friends told me that I need to make up for the absences. Don't worry, someday I will.
I really miss them. the fun that I had with them. The teasing. The jokings. Everything.
I just wish that they would take the effort to say or drop an email here and there. That's all I want. A simple hi. I just don't want to do all the effort. But sometimes I have to, in order for me to know that I'm not forgotten. dramatic, i know.
I just miss them. Wala lang. I just wish that they're like a city away from me.

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Blog Features change a lot.

Seriously.

Livejournal
Wordpress
Multiply


So I have a lot of weblogs? I don't really have that much time on my hands to fill these babies up with my unmitigated, random and superficial thoughts. I just update when I feel like it. These days I'm not really a fan of writing. I read more. I don't know, I just find fun and interest in what other people write about.

So, to the blogs that I lurk around to: Sorry I don't comment much... I'm just not the type of person to write. But, I respect your opinions (sometimes I don't.. ).. But most of the times I do.. don't worry about me.. i'm not what you call a "toxic" lurker/reader.. i'm simply a person who enjoys reading better than writing.

Adios!

Friday, March 24, 2006

self sacrifice is good for the soul

I've been selfish for the past 3 months. I've been out and about. My social life has turned me into ways that I didn't even imagine. I partied until the wee hours of the morning. Stayed up late just to talk to friends. Pretty much do things that normal teens and early 20s people do. I've been sucked into that hole where I didn't think straight. I didn't think what the people who are close to my life think about what i'm doing.

Now, I think I'm paying for it. My mom suddenly became not-to-strict, but close to being strict on me. She wants me to go home early now. Whenever I ask permission from her to go out, I always get that look, that as if I'm going to do something bad.

It's an ugly feeling. Funny part is, I don't know which feeling is ugly.

Guess that's how life is sometimes. When you do too much, you end up paying for it by having someone or something make you not do much.

So I guess it's time for me to self sacrifice. Sacrifice the things that I THINK would make me happy for the things that other people will be happy with. Well, I'll sacrifice SOME things. But not ALL things.

I'm feeling a little in between right now. I don't really know where to position myself into.

GOD, HELP ME.

Saturday, March 18, 2006

Something for all of us to think about.

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Speech of Butch Jimenez, head of PLDT's media and strategic communications
department, delivered during the UP Diliman Class 2003 commencement
exercises)


As college students, you're just about to set sail into the real world. As
you prepare for the battleground of life, you'll hear many speeches, read
tons of books and get miles of advice telling you to work hard, dream big,
go out and do something for yourself, and have a vision. Not bad advice,
really. In fact, following these nuggets of truth may just bring you to the
top. But as I've lived my life over the years, I have come to realize that
it is great to dream big, have a vision, make a name, and work hard. But
guess what: There's something better than that.


So my message today simply asks the question, What's better than...?


Let's start off with something really simple. What's better than a long
speech? No doubt, a short one. So, you guys are in luck because I do intend
to keep this short.


Now, let me take you through a very simple math exam. I'll rattle off a
couple of equations, and you tell me what you observe about them. Be
mindful of the instructions. You are to tell me what you observe about the
equations. Here goes:


3+4=7, 9+2=11, 8+4=13, and 6+6=12. Tell me, what do you observe?


Every time I conduct this test, more than 90 percent of the participants
immediately say, 8+4 is NOT 13, it's 12!


That's true and they are correct. But they could have also observed that
the three other equations were right. That 3+4 is 7, that 9+2 is 11, and
that 6+6 is 12.


What's my point? Many people immediately focus on the negative instead of
the positive. Most of us focus on what's wrong with other people more than
what's right about them.


Examine those four equations. Three were right and only one was wrong. But
what is the knee-jerk observation? The wrong equation.


If 10 people you didn't know were to walk through that door, most of you
would describe those people by what's negative about them. He's fat.He's
balding. Oh, the short one. Oh, the skinny girl. Ahhh, 'yung pango
(flat-nosed). Etc.


Get the point? It's always the negative we focus on and not the positive.


You'll definitely experience this in the corporate world. You do a hundred
good things and one mistake-guess what? Chances are, your attention will be
called on that one mistake.


So what's better than focusing on the negative? Believe me, its focusing on
the positive. And if this world could learn to focus on the positive more
than the negative, it would be a much nicer place to live in.


Better than working hard.


We have always been told to work hard. Our parents say that, our teachers
say that, and our principal says that. But there's something better than
merely working hard. It's working SMART. It's taking time to understand the
situation, and coming out with an effective and efficient solution to get
more done with less time and effort.


As the Japanese say, "There's always a better way." One of the most
memorable case studies I came across with as I studied Japanese management
at Sophia University in Tokyo was the case of the empty soap box, which
happened in one of Japan's biggest cosmetics companies.


The company received a complaint that a consumer had bought a box of soap
that was empty. It immediately isolated the problem to the assembly line,
which transported all the packaged boxes of soap to the delivery
department. For some reason, one soap box went through the assembly line
empty.


Management tasked its engineers to solve the problem. Post-haste, the
engineers worked hard to devise an X-ray machine with high-resolution
monitors manned by two people to watch all the soap boxes that passed
through the line to make sure they were not empty. No doubt, they worked
hard and they worked fast.


But a rank-and-file employee that was posed the same problem came out with
another solution. He bought a strong industrial electric fan and pointed it
at the assembly line. He switched the fan on, and as each soap box passed
the fan, it simply blew the empty boxes out of the line.


Clearly, the engineers worked hard, but the rank-and-file employee worked
smart.


So what's better than merely working hard? It's working smart.


Having said that, it is still important to work hard. If you could combine
both working hard and working smart, you would possess a major factor
toward success.


Better than dreaming big


I will bet my next month's salary that many have encouraged you to dream
big. Maybe even to reach for the stars and aim high.


I sure heard that about a million times right before I graduated from this
university. So I did. I did dream big. I did aim high. I did reach for the
stars. No doubt, it works. In fact, the saying is true: "If you aim for
nothing, that's exactly what you'll hit: nothing."


But there's something better than dreaming big. Believe me, I got shocked
myself. And I learned it from the biggest dreamer of all time, Walt Disney.


When it comes to dreaming big, Walt is the man. No bigger dreams were
fulfilled than his. Every leadership book describes him as the ultimate
dreamer. In fact, the principle of dreaming and achieving is the core
message of the Disney hit song, "When You Wish Upon a Star".


"When you wish upon a star, makes no difference who you are; anything your
heart desires will come to you. If your heart is in your dream, no request
is too extreme. When you wish upon a star, as dreamers do," as Jiminy
Cricket sang.


But is that what he preached in the Disney company? Dream?


Imagineering


Well, not exactly. Kinda, but not quite. The problem with dreaming is if
that's all you do, you'll really get nowhere. In fact, you may just fall
asleep and never wake up. The secret to Disney's success is not just
dreaming, it's IMAGINEERING. You won't find this word in a dictionary. It's
purely a Disney word.


Those who engage in imagineering are called imagineers. The word combines
the words "imagination" and "engineering."


In the book "Imagineers," Disney's CEO, Michael Eisner, claims that
"imagineers turn impossible dreams into real magic." Walt Disney explained
there is really no secret to their approach. They just keep moving
forward-opening new doors and doing new things, because they are curious.
And it is this curiosity that leads them down new paths. They always dream,
explore and experiment. In short, imagineering is the blending of creative
imagination and technical know-how.


Eisner expounds on this thought by saying that "Not only are imagineers
curious, they are courageous, outrageous, and their creativity is
contagious."


The big difference with imagineers is that they dream and then they DO! So
don't just be a dreamer, be an imagineer.


You must have all been given a lecture at one time or another about the
importance of having a vision. Even leadership expert John Maxwell says
that an indispensable quality of a leader is to have a vision. The Bible
also makes it very clear that "Without vision, people perish." So no doubt
about it, having a vision is important to success.


But surprise! There's something more potent than a vision. It's a CAUSE.
If all you're doing is trying to reach your vision and you're pitted
against someone fighting for a cause, chances are you'll lose.


The Vietnam War is a classic example. Literally with sticks and stones, the
Viet Cong beat the heavily armed US Army to surrender, primarily because
the US had a vision to win the war, but the Vietnamese were fighting for a
cause.


In the realm of business, many leaders have visions of making their company
No. 1, or grabbing market share, or forever increasing profits. Nothing
really wrong with that vision, but take the example of Sony founder Akio
Morita. He did not just have a vision to build the biggest electronics
company in the world. In his biography, "Made in Japan," he reveals that
the real reason he set up Sony was to help rebuild his country, which had
just been battered by war. He had a cause he was fighting for. His vision
to be an electronics giant was secondary.


What's the difference between a vision and a cause? Here's what sets them
apart...


No one is willing to die for a vision. People will die for a cause. You
posses a vision. A cause possesses you. A vision lies in your hands. A
cause lies in your heart. A vision involves sacrifice. A cause involves the
ultimate sacrifice.


Just a word of caution. You must have the right vision, and you must be
fighting for the right cause. In the end, right will always win out.


It may take time, and it may take long. But if you have the right vision
and are fighting for the right cause, you will prevail. If not, no matter
how sincere you are, if you are not fighting for what is right, you will
ultimately fail.


Two final quotes: Allow me to end with two quotes that I have lived by ever
since I stepped out of UP. The first comes from the Bible, which says,
"To whom much is given, much is required." Having been given the
opportunity to study in UP, no doubt, much has been given to you in terms
of an excellent education. Don't forget that in return, much is now
required of you to use that education not just for yourself, but for
others.


And as you move up and start reaching the pinnacle of success, even more
will be required of you to look at the welfare of others, of society and of
the country.


Though I have often dreamed of addressing any graduating class of UP
Diliman, I never really thought it would happen. This brings me to the
second quote I have held close to my heart as I traverse the destiny God
has laid out for me.


"There is no destination beyond reach of one who walks with God." My
standing in front of you today, as the youngest commencement speaker of
this esteemed university in 92 years, is proof of how true that quote is.


A final review:


* What's better than focusing on the negative? Focus on the positive. *
What's better than working hard? It's working smart. * What's better than
dreaming? Imagineering. * What's better than doing something for yourself?
Doing something for your country. * What's better than a vision? A cause. *
What's better than a long speech? Definitely, a short one.
Thank you and congratulations, UP Diliman graduating class of 2003.

Monday, March 13, 2006

Trust/Mistrust/Hypocritical Notions.

I now know the feeling of having your family talk behind your back.

Sometimes it sucks when they don't trust you enough to do the right thing.

Sometimes the feeling of doing good just isn't good enough.

Sometimes you just don't know what position to put yourself into.

Sometimes you just don't know how to act.

In some ways, I deserve it.

In some ways, I feel like I don't deserve it.

But they're family. I can't live without them. They're my go-to people when I'm in trouble.

So, I just have to live with it.

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I've never felt so much motivation in my life.

One, I have been mistrusted.
Two, I was somewhat pressured
Three, Passing just makes me want to be happy
Four, I just want to be motivated.

I think the mistrust got stuck in my head now. The words that I heard from yesterday just wounded my heart so bad. Pati pala sa family, talking behind each others back is a common thing. Hmm.. I guess, I do it to. I also talk behind their backs. I guess this is the consequence for that. This is sad. Even family's talk behind each other's back. I thought only friends do that.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

Blah.

it sucks when you're on your own when a problem strikes you down.

it sucks even more when that problem strikes you down when you're in a middle of a stressful situation.

is this God's way of seeing how resilient I am?

I guess so.

is this His way of wanting to know how much faith I have in Him?

I guess so.

God, don't leave me behind. I need you right now. I give the problem and the stress to you. I know that you won't leave me hanging.

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

random crap that i will edit later today

I'm thinking about deleting this blog.

Because I want to make room for a photoblog.

Thursday, February 16, 2006

i'm hyper

kahit wala, masaya pa rin ako.
ok lang.. protected naman ako e.. natuto na.
masaya ako. sana lang hindi maging over over.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

She wants to move

It's funny how I always feel helpless whenever I feel like I'm not doing a good job in keeping up with the pressures of school. It's funny that I always feel not good enough for this university whenever I feel like I'm going to fail. It's funny that I always feel like I want to give up whenever I can't seem to focus on studying. It's funny how I can't seem to find the right inspiration that will help me to not screw up.

I've enumerated a number of inspirations before --- my nieces and nephew, my relatives who died of cancer, that one person, my parents. But I can't seem to internalize the way that they can inspire me.

It's funny how I find it hard to study in college, when in high school I studied like a mad scientist. How is the studying of a high school student different from college? Is it because in high school, everything was spoon-fed to you, while in college somehow everything was spoon fed to you and it's just up to you to do the rest of the spoon-feeding?

Anyway, my birthday's coming up. HEHE. It's funny because before I don't seem so excited about it, now, it's all I can think about. Probably because I'm entering the 20s. hahaha.. what's so significant about that right? hehehe.. But I guess what's different now, is that I am excited about it, but I don't feel like celebrating it. Before, my family use to go out to celebrate birthdays, now I don't really feel like doing that. I just want to stay home, cook for it, eat and go on with the rest of my duties. I guess now, what's more important to me is celebrating it at home with the family with a bunch of food that we either cooked or bought at the store. Plus, it's less expensive that way. Restaurants are expensive, cooking food at home, not expensive.

Monday, February 13, 2006

i'm scared

i'm scared. i'm really scared of what is and what will be.

i'm scared of false things.

i'm scared of being burned.

i'm really scared right now.