Friends.

it's hard to know what friends mean. i don't know if we're just competing for things that we're not suppose to be competing for or if we're just not meant to be that close at all. life is so hard without knowing who are truly your friends. it's hard to know how to act with people you always hang out with because you don't know if how you're acting generally irritates them or they're just putting up with you just because they don't have no one else to go with.

it's also hard to compete. i know you're not suppose to or it's not about competing at all, but sometimes it just feels that way.

it's also hard to be less selfish because people generally are born that way. Only God is the one with the non-selfish bone in his body.

i dreamt last night about my friends from the Philippines. All of them were here, in Seattle. They came to visit me, but unfortunately, I couldn't hang out with them because I had school and they were only here for one day and at the time that I went home from school, they're all gone. It was a sad dream. I remember one of them hugging me and crying his (take note, it's a guy) eyes out about how much he misses talking and laughing with me. I remember that even for just a little time, we all managed to just catch up with what is going on. It's heartbreaking to have that dream. Somehow, I could just interpret it as me being that guy who's crying his eyes out. IT feels like i am him, although i don't project my emotions out on crying (heelloo, been there done that.. moving onnn.. ).. Anyway, I just can't wait to go back home and just catch up with each and everyone of them. I have one week (or two, hopefully) to do so.

i miss..

lin
lenn
joy
nyo
nat
noel
jamuel
paolo
ron
ivy
heidi
grace e
grace s
pj
ryan
earl

haaayy.. and so much more.

i wish to see them soon.

friends, they bite, they're family, they're bitches and assh****, they're mean, they're tolerable, they're nasty, they're annoying, they're nice, they're forgiving, they're kind, they're generous, they're funny, they're charming, they're supportive, they're your rock.

Grey's 2-hour and Spidey's 2hr20min

Grey's

They're doing this "spin-off" on Addison's character and they started to introduce it through the two hour episode that they had last Thursday. Quite interesting and funny to see all those co-op doctors work and act. Also, I loved the fact that she was reuniting with her med school best friends. It makes for an interesting statement for me, because I want to reunite with my high school friends. Hayyy..

Also, the Shepherd and Mark moment was priceless. They're enemies and friends at the same time.

And seriously, the George and Izzie thing is pissing me off. Somehow it's like this past thing that I happened to me. I don't want them together, I like Izzie and Alex together.

Spider Man 3

(SPOILER ALERT)

"I'll die for my friends" - Harry

Yeah, he actually did. At a pivotal moment of this movie. Touching scene.

"Revenge is like a poison" - Aunt Mae

Yeah, VENOM covering Spider Man all up and a BELL helped him take it of.

"People always need some help, Peter, even Spider Man" - Mary Jane

"Harry, I need your help" - Peter Parker

You guys should seriously watch it. Best Spider Man movie among the trilogy.

Also, I watched the Fantastic Four trailer. Funny and action-filled. LOL.

2006 was fun. 2007 will be cooler.

Discovered new things.

• I can actually keep my room clean. I re-did the whole layout of my room when my Christmas break started and yeah, I'm kinda digging the new look. Although, I have to accustom or rather train myself to fix my stuff. It gets too crowded in my room when there are too much stuff.


• I discovered that I have the power to become uber crazy when I'm drunk. It's true, people do the craziest things when they're drunk. AND they also go through the most embarassing things.


• I discovered that I can make the FIRST move to the things that I want most and HEY, making the first move isn't so bad at all. You actually can get what you want.


• I've been through phases this year. It was crazy.

Trashed the old things.

• I trashed some bad vibes around me. It wasn't the nicest thing I've ever done, but at least I got it out of my system AND my environment.


• I made some people mad AND I made some people think with this ENTRY.

Discovered things about myself and my surroundings.

When people do things that I despise, I realize that I despise it because I myself do the same thing that they do.
I realized that no matter how hard you try, you'll still expect from others.
I realized that nothing in this world can be permanent. It always ends up being messed up.
I learned not to push myself into somewhere I don't belong to.
I learned to watch my back even more.
I learned the power of true friendship.
I learned the art of being passive aggressive.

To the people that I have met, thank you for the lasting impressions you gave me.
To the few that I have hurt, for that I am sorry. I don't expect for things to get back to the way they are, because I know that IT will never will.

Goodluck and God bless with this year everyone.
HAPPY NEW YEAR.

i miss my friends.

I just miss the feeling of being really comfortable around people.
People who have known you for quite some time. Oh say.. 8 years? 9 years?
Most of my friends back home are graduating this year. How fast time goes by. I wish I could watch them. I wish I could be there to congratulate them. TO give them a hug for a job well done.
I wish I could be there during reunions. I've missed a lot. One of my friends told me that I need to make up for the absences. Don't worry, someday I will.
I really miss them. the fun that I had with them. The teasing. The jokings. Everything.
I just wish that they would take the effort to say or drop an email here and there. That's all I want. A simple hi. I just don't want to do all the effort. But sometimes I have to, in order for me to know that I'm not forgotten. dramatic, i know.
I just miss them. Wala lang. I just wish that they're like a city away from me.