Interview woes

I had an interview today for a job that I really really really want to have. ARRGGHH.. if only I knew how to express how I really want this job then maybe I could've left a more lasting impression to the interviewer. I feel so dumb. I seriously don't know how to act during an interview. After an interview, I tend to criticize myself for being to quiet, being too timid or being too shy. I hate hate hate those qualities.

I really want this job. I seriously don't care about the amount of money that they will pay me. But why am i ranting here?? I should be saying this to that person.

Sir, if you're reading this, I really really do want this job. I'm sorry for being so timid earlier, but I just did not want to come off as being too aggressive and too informal.

ARGGGHHH!!!

Friends.

it's hard to know what friends mean. i don't know if we're just competing for things that we're not suppose to be competing for or if we're just not meant to be that close at all. life is so hard without knowing who are truly your friends. it's hard to know how to act with people you always hang out with because you don't know if how you're acting generally irritates them or they're just putting up with you just because they don't have no one else to go with.

it's also hard to compete. i know you're not suppose to or it's not about competing at all, but sometimes it just feels that way.

it's also hard to be less selfish because people generally are born that way. Only God is the one with the non-selfish bone in his body.

i dreamt last night about my friends from the Philippines. All of them were here, in Seattle. They came to visit me, but unfortunately, I couldn't hang out with them because I had school and they were only here for one day and at the time that I went home from school, they're all gone. It was a sad dream. I remember one of them hugging me and crying his (take note, it's a guy) eyes out about how much he misses talking and laughing with me. I remember that even for just a little time, we all managed to just catch up with what is going on. It's heartbreaking to have that dream. Somehow, I could just interpret it as me being that guy who's crying his eyes out. IT feels like i am him, although i don't project my emotions out on crying (heelloo, been there done that.. moving onnn.. ).. Anyway, I just can't wait to go back home and just catch up with each and everyone of them. I have one week (or two, hopefully) to do so.

i miss..

lin
lenn
joy
nyo
nat
noel
jamuel
paolo
ron
ivy
heidi
grace e
grace s
pj
ryan
earl

haaayy.. and so much more.

i wish to see them soon.

friends, they bite, they're family, they're bitches and assh****, they're mean, they're tolerable, they're nasty, they're annoying, they're nice, they're forgiving, they're kind, they're generous, they're funny, they're charming, they're supportive, they're your rock.

Bags inspired my Gwenie

This was my first Harajuku Lovers bag.

Hay lab it.

This bags are ridiculously pricey. I think my mom got this on sale at Macy's.










I've never been a fan of Gwen Stefani's clothing line mostly because it was way over the price that I'm willing to pay for. Then when my family (sister and cousin) started buying all this Harajuku Lovers bags all on sale, the green eyed monster caught me. Must be something about the family.
This bag is my second Harajuku Lovers bag. My mom bought it for me. She asked my yesterday if I wanted to own one more of this line, I didn't succumb to it because for one I don't really need it anymore. But when she got it and showed it to me today, I instantly fell in love with this one.

Cute ha?

Notice the shadow frame of this picture. Kinda like this picture was taken with a Holga Camera. Hihi.




I searched through the Harajuku Lovers website today and found this cute tote bag selling for $42. Haayyy.. the price you pay for the things that you only want.

(image courtesy of harajukulovers.com)


I might have to wait on this one.

forgive the all over editing.it's been a while since i tackled HTML.

From StealThatLook Blog:

”One of the most striking differences between a well-dressed American and a well-dressed Parisienne is in the size of their respective wardrobes. The American would probably be astonished by the very limited number of garments hanging from the Frenchwoman’s closet, but she would also be bound to observe that each one is of excellent quality, expensive perhaps by American standards, and perfectly adapted to the life that the Frenchwoman leads…Americans are often shocked by the high prices in the Paris shops, and they wonder how a young career girl, who earns half the salary of her American counterpart can afford to carry an alligator handbag and to wear a suit from the Balmain boutique. The answer is that she buys very few garments; her goal is to possess a single perfect ensemble for each of the different occasions in her life, rather than a wide choice of clothes to suit her every passing mood.” (page 147-148)

It’s not like this is the first time I’ve heard about this. Tito Johnny, my friend Nina’s fabulous uncle and a valued client at Homme et Femme (thanks for letting me use your discount! hahaha!) has long instructed us on the virtues of French women. He said that Parisienne girls never give in to impulse shopping. They really save their salary to be able to purchase the best bag/coat/pair of shoes that their money can buy. You will never see them settling for the next best thing.

Between my mom’s astute observations and Tito Johnny’s impassioned teachings, that’s what I call the wisdom of our elders!

(Style Spy: manilafashionobserver)

So maybe I should embrace that French woman mantra. It makes sense. Buying trends that will be passe in the next few months does not even make any sense, although, I still wear them even if they are pass. So I resolve to follow this ideal. Maybe it will do me good, after all I barely shop anymore (also, I'm flat broke).

I am currently studying for my second midterm in Human Sexuality that will occur in a bout 2 hours time. It covers pregnancy to embryonic development to sexual orientation. I got pretty much interested in the pregnancy and embryonic part. Hopefully, I do good in this exam. Actually scratch that, I know I will do good, you know why? because I started out this day great. The Pchem substitute professor was an awesome teacher, I understood every part of his lectures this whole week (with missing some points, to which I can always read up on the book) and that made me feel good, to actually understand what is going on.

I know I'll do good, I am my own lucky charm.

2 and 3/4 quarters to go.

woes and woos

So i asked a stupid question about Mother's Day dinner or whatever to my aunt yesterday, which made my world kind of whirling around right now.

yeah i didn't mean it that way, i know that it was suppose to be Mother's Day, i just thought that she would since she always cooks something for dinner even if it was a potluck dinner.


whatever.

Grey's 2-hour and Spidey's 2hr20min

Grey's

They're doing this "spin-off" on Addison's character and they started to introduce it through the two hour episode that they had last Thursday. Quite interesting and funny to see all those co-op doctors work and act. Also, I loved the fact that she was reuniting with her med school best friends. It makes for an interesting statement for me, because I want to reunite with my high school friends. Hayyy..

Also, the Shepherd and Mark moment was priceless. They're enemies and friends at the same time.

And seriously, the George and Izzie thing is pissing me off. Somehow it's like this past thing that I happened to me. I don't want them together, I like Izzie and Alex together.

Spider Man 3

(SPOILER ALERT)

"I'll die for my friends" - Harry

Yeah, he actually did. At a pivotal moment of this movie. Touching scene.

"Revenge is like a poison" - Aunt Mae

Yeah, VENOM covering Spider Man all up and a BELL helped him take it of.

"People always need some help, Peter, even Spider Man" - Mary Jane

"Harry, I need your help" - Peter Parker

You guys should seriously watch it. Best Spider Man movie among the trilogy.

Also, I watched the Fantastic Four trailer. Funny and action-filled. LOL.

so does becoming "too available" beats the S out of you?

i was in a semi-annoyed mood yesterday for reasons that I don't even know if they were fair or not. i sometimes find myself in awe on how i can retain myself from being the "lashing out, irrational" person that i can get when i'm almost at the edge of being mad.

i find it very comforting that there are some people who care enough to tell you that you should not just lash out without even thinking about the reason you're lashing out. sometimes, i find it hard to do such. i speak with emotions rather than thoughts, which gets me into trouble most of the time.

i'm a highly sensitive person. i used to think that i wasn't, but until recently, i became overly sensitive.

maybe it's because of my lifestyle these days.

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this quarter is my first quarter of my last year in college.

scary and exciting at the same time

APPLE MAKES PEOPLE WAIT.

Apple Released a Statement with regards to LEOPARD.

THIS BLOWS!!

I've been waiting all this time for this OS to come out. GRR..

This makes me buy the TIGER. I don't think I can upgrade to LEOPARD from PANTHER (yes, I'm that far behind in updating my computer).

HAYYY.. I hate waiting.

Politics is too vicious to handle.

I've never talked about political issues for the reason that I hate going into it since it's so dirty and vicious and downright superficial. Then again, as I've learned recently, political life has much to do with the life that I'm living right now.

This article from the New York Times is what going to make me talk about politics in this blog.

• For some UNKNOWN reason, the lovely Vice President Dick Cheney came out of the picture and started accusing/bantering the Senate and the House Democrats with regards to the war spending bill that they are proposing to the president that says they're going to approve the funds for the troop in exchange for troops withdrawal by October 1. I have not seen or heard any comments from Cheney ever since this tug of war between the executive and the legislative began, which makes me think, did Cheney only come out to engage in the gridlock because the Republicans in the House and the Senate refuse to engage in the tug of war. Did he only come out so Bush can have the image that he has someone by his side to defend his foreign policies?
  

Senator Reid was right when he said this:

“The president sends out his attack dog often,” said Mr. Reid. “That’s also known as Dick Cheney.”

• The article also quoted Bush on a PBS radio show: “Just logic,” Mr. Bush replied. “I mean, you say we start moving troops out. Don’t you think an enemy is going to wait and adjust based upon an announced timetable of withdrawal?”

WHAT LOGIC ARE YOU TALKING ABOUUUUTT??? DUDEEE!! wake up!!! What was your primary reason that you went to Iraq in the first place?

(Check!) You overthrew a dictator
(Check!) You helped the Iraqi people build a democracy

And you're so called idea that the government was carrying weapons of mass destruction was not even supported because the investigators sent there didn't even find any.

o mi gossshhhhhh.... what the hell is wrong with your brain?? If you're so worried about your "enemy", direct your troops towards the place to where that enemy is, not to a place where the enemy has already been disintegrated. OR better yet, send the troops home so that your country will not be left undefended when it starts to get invaded.

Also, are you deaf?? Are you not hearing the Iraqi people calling out for the Americans to go and leave their country??

Seriously. You're wasting so much lives on something that does not even make any sense anymore.

Hope that this "debacle" of yours won't hunt you in the decades to come.

i'm gonna try LIVEJOURNAL.

go over there!

lpamuspusan.livejournal.com

Till we see you again....

"Kaya ikaw, lubusin mo yung oras mo sa mga parents mo, dahil pag wala na sila, duon mo marealize na kulang na kulang ka sa oras, duon ka magsisisi."

(take advantage of the time that you have with your parents now, because once they are gone you can't bring back those times and you'll find out how little time that you have with them)

This is what my friend told me after I talked to him.

Deaths have been happening lately. I can't imagine how much grief and sorrow one must feel to experience a loss of someone that is deeply close to them.

For the people who have lost their loved ones, I am deeply sorry.

And for the ones that have passed, I'll see you when I get there.

Spring Break

So I'm hoping to end my spring break with this kind of sobriety shown in this picture. I'm hoping to start spring quarter with full energy and enthusiasm.

This picture was taken by Gene during our 1 year ani at the Royal Argosy Cruise (highly recommended for all the Seattle peeps out there, try their Crab Bisque entree.. reaalllyyy gooodd). I like this picture. When I first saw it I asked him, "is that me?", and when he said yes. I was astonished. I luuuvvv this picture! and also the person who took it.

I'm ending my work study this June. I'm planning to look for a job at the hospital. I already got my Phlebotomy certificate, so it's on to looking for actual jobs. I am looking towards applying at Children's Hospital, since I'm planning to work with kids in my future. Recently, I've been checking the job board in their website, but it only shows one opening during the nights. Anyway, I'll keep checking.

"Kamikaze"

My first drink as a legal person in this country. It tasted like lime juice or lemon juice.

So.. turning 21? Yes, I'm a certified adult now. More responsibilities though and more things to think about in life. I'm almost graduating so it's time for me to actually get on with my med school admissions stuff. I'm starting to study for the MCAT, piece by piece that is. OHHH... and I have to finish our citizenship papers. Sooo much stuff.. to do..

I wish the euphoria (sans the puking) I had during the day I had this shot taken didn't wore off. I wish that that night with less responsibilities did not end. But it had to. I woke up the next day and I knew I had more to do.

I really don't know if I'm still qualified to say, "Heck, I'm still young, I can take my time". At 21, I really don't know if I should start taking life seriously or just go with the flow like I did when you were 20, or 19 or 18 and so forth.

Anyway.. I have too much time on my hands today.

Heeyyy.. this is the first post in a long time with a photos.

Awesome.

Finals: THE END

Done for the quarter. Read that my Physical Chemistry grade is out and about for the public eye to see. Damn professor.

Anyway, spring break... my "plans" are.....

Monday -

home/work/tires

sh%t i don't know..

Tuesday -

home/work/oil/tires

seriously.. no clue

Wednesday -

home/work/oil/tires/FAFSA PAPERS/citizenship papers

arggghhhh...

Thursday -

home/work/oil/tires/Fafsa papers/citizenship papers/iron my mother's clothes

spring break is starting to shine upon me by now..

Friday -

who gives a damn anyway???


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happy day today. it's 1 year day. it's green day. it's saint patrick's day.
1 year beybeeehh!!

Finals II

I am taking one of the million breaks that I've taken ever since I started studying at 9pm. I'm studying for my History of Christianity Final. There's a lot to study and umm.. there's really a lot to study.

I finished my Physical Chemistry Final today. It was alright for the first few parts, but when I got to the end, I completely flaked out. I didn't know how to do it, so basically I BSed my answers. Can't wait to see my grades for that class.

I also finished my Phlebotomy course. I can start looking for jobs now. Just looking.

For my sake, I hope this quarter ends with a bang.

Can't wait for this:

1 year BEYBEEHH!!

Finals I

I have this theory that when you wait until the day before a paper is due you can' t possibly get the best score (or at least an average score) on it, unless of course you're a really good writer and you already know what you're gonna write already. But I didn't know what to write about and I proved this theory with the 2nd paper I did for my Rome class. 2.4 baby. Yes, that's how much I crammed to do that paper. Quite sad.

Last class for my Blood Draw course tomorrow. I am pinning to get a 39/40 in the test tomorrow cause as it turns out (thanks to my lovely bf who reminded me about it), I have to get at least a 90 out of a 100 to get a 3.0 in that class. I already lost 8 points from the previous 3 quizzes that we had. Fun.

Anyway, I should be studying instead of blogging.

See you in a week.

Finals Week.

*scratches head*

it's that time of the quarter again.

I have 4 to take. ho boy.

ok. breathe. breathe. i can do this.

breathe. breathe.

seriously, i can do this.

OK...
i'm ok..
let's just think of happy thoughts.

Tomorrow's Agenda: Study for PCHEM final. That will continue on until Tuesday.

Wednesday's Agenda: Study for Christianity final. That will continue on until Thursday.

Friday's Agenda: Study for Rome final, which will continue on until Saturday.

ALSO for Thursday and Friday's Agenda: Study for Phlebotomy class' final.

1 week to study. YEEYYY. I shall kick some butt. Who cares if I don't get registered with the classes that I want? If I kick some butt with finals, I'll be extra extra happy.

*jumps up and down*

ok. PEACE!

Banks give me the creeps

Bank of America says that they are "THE BANK OF OPPORTUNITY"

I'm so sure.

For a bank that charges for withdrawal fees from ATMs to a bank that doesn't even inform you that they will charge your credit card that you don't use with the money that you owe them.

BANK OF OPPORTUNITY indeed.

Bente-Uno

9:47pm

I received a wonderful gift today. The hospital assistant in the surgery department that I volunteer at toured me around the operating rooms in the hospital, both the pavilion and the main one. It was a great experience, getting a first hand look at a real operating room. I also got a chance to sneak a peek on a surgery actually being done to someone. It was great. I can't really describe the feeling that I had when I was there. Basta. It was a great gift I could received and to think I received it on my 21st.

In my head, now more than ever, I have a good feeling. I am going to med school.

NO MATTER WHAT.

I AM AMAZED.

12:37pm

I need to get a camera phone.

It's my birthday!!

uhhh..

What else should i say??

IT'S MY BIRTHDAAYY!!

Why can't President's day be 48 hrs?

3 day weekend GONEE.. BAAHH!!

OK. Back to school again later today.. waaahh.. i want spring break..

i'm also sad right now because i didn't get the lab class that i want. effin graduating seniors (and to think, I will be them in a couple of months..)..

anddd.. my birthday is in 2 days.

OK. I have to turn on my school mode again.

BAAHH!!!