Interview woes

I had an interview today for a job that I really really really want to have. ARRGGHH.. if only I knew how to express how I really want this job then maybe I could've left a more lasting impression to the interviewer. I feel so dumb. I seriously don't know how to act during an interview. After an interview, I tend to criticize myself for being to quiet, being too timid or being too shy. I hate hate hate those qualities.

I really want this job. I seriously don't care about the amount of money that they will pay me. But why am i ranting here?? I should be saying this to that person.

Sir, if you're reading this, I really really do want this job. I'm sorry for being so timid earlier, but I just did not want to come off as being too aggressive and too informal.

ARGGGHHH!!!

Friends.

it's hard to know what friends mean. i don't know if we're just competing for things that we're not suppose to be competing for or if we're just not meant to be that close at all. life is so hard without knowing who are truly your friends. it's hard to know how to act with people you always hang out with because you don't know if how you're acting generally irritates them or they're just putting up with you just because they don't have no one else to go with.

it's also hard to compete. i know you're not suppose to or it's not about competing at all, but sometimes it just feels that way.

it's also hard to be less selfish because people generally are born that way. Only God is the one with the non-selfish bone in his body.

i dreamt last night about my friends from the Philippines. All of them were here, in Seattle. They came to visit me, but unfortunately, I couldn't hang out with them because I had school and they were only here for one day and at the time that I went home from school, they're all gone. It was a sad dream. I remember one of them hugging me and crying his (take note, it's a guy) eyes out about how much he misses talking and laughing with me. I remember that even for just a little time, we all managed to just catch up with what is going on. It's heartbreaking to have that dream. Somehow, I could just interpret it as me being that guy who's crying his eyes out. IT feels like i am him, although i don't project my emotions out on crying (heelloo, been there done that.. moving onnn.. ).. Anyway, I just can't wait to go back home and just catch up with each and everyone of them. I have one week (or two, hopefully) to do so.

i miss..

lin
lenn
joy
nyo
nat
noel
jamuel
paolo
ron
ivy
heidi
grace e
grace s
pj
ryan
earl

haaayy.. and so much more.

i wish to see them soon.

friends, they bite, they're family, they're bitches and assh****, they're mean, they're tolerable, they're nasty, they're annoying, they're nice, they're forgiving, they're kind, they're generous, they're funny, they're charming, they're supportive, they're your rock.

Bags inspired my Gwenie

This was my first Harajuku Lovers bag.

Hay lab it.

This bags are ridiculously pricey. I think my mom got this on sale at Macy's.










I've never been a fan of Gwen Stefani's clothing line mostly because it was way over the price that I'm willing to pay for. Then when my family (sister and cousin) started buying all this Harajuku Lovers bags all on sale, the green eyed monster caught me. Must be something about the family.
This bag is my second Harajuku Lovers bag. My mom bought it for me. She asked my yesterday if I wanted to own one more of this line, I didn't succumb to it because for one I don't really need it anymore. But when she got it and showed it to me today, I instantly fell in love with this one.

Cute ha?

Notice the shadow frame of this picture. Kinda like this picture was taken with a Holga Camera. Hihi.




I searched through the Harajuku Lovers website today and found this cute tote bag selling for $42. Haayyy.. the price you pay for the things that you only want.

(image courtesy of harajukulovers.com)


I might have to wait on this one.

forgive the all over editing.it's been a while since i tackled HTML.

From StealThatLook Blog:

”One of the most striking differences between a well-dressed American and a well-dressed Parisienne is in the size of their respective wardrobes. The American would probably be astonished by the very limited number of garments hanging from the Frenchwoman’s closet, but she would also be bound to observe that each one is of excellent quality, expensive perhaps by American standards, and perfectly adapted to the life that the Frenchwoman leads…Americans are often shocked by the high prices in the Paris shops, and they wonder how a young career girl, who earns half the salary of her American counterpart can afford to carry an alligator handbag and to wear a suit from the Balmain boutique. The answer is that she buys very few garments; her goal is to possess a single perfect ensemble for each of the different occasions in her life, rather than a wide choice of clothes to suit her every passing mood.” (page 147-148)

It’s not like this is the first time I’ve heard about this. Tito Johnny, my friend Nina’s fabulous uncle and a valued client at Homme et Femme (thanks for letting me use your discount! hahaha!) has long instructed us on the virtues of French women. He said that Parisienne girls never give in to impulse shopping. They really save their salary to be able to purchase the best bag/coat/pair of shoes that their money can buy. You will never see them settling for the next best thing.

Between my mom’s astute observations and Tito Johnny’s impassioned teachings, that’s what I call the wisdom of our elders!

(Style Spy: manilafashionobserver)

So maybe I should embrace that French woman mantra. It makes sense. Buying trends that will be passe in the next few months does not even make any sense, although, I still wear them even if they are pass. So I resolve to follow this ideal. Maybe it will do me good, after all I barely shop anymore (also, I'm flat broke).

I am currently studying for my second midterm in Human Sexuality that will occur in a bout 2 hours time. It covers pregnancy to embryonic development to sexual orientation. I got pretty much interested in the pregnancy and embryonic part. Hopefully, I do good in this exam. Actually scratch that, I know I will do good, you know why? because I started out this day great. The Pchem substitute professor was an awesome teacher, I understood every part of his lectures this whole week (with missing some points, to which I can always read up on the book) and that made me feel good, to actually understand what is going on.

I know I'll do good, I am my own lucky charm.

2 and 3/4 quarters to go.

woes and woos

So i asked a stupid question about Mother's Day dinner or whatever to my aunt yesterday, which made my world kind of whirling around right now.

yeah i didn't mean it that way, i know that it was suppose to be Mother's Day, i just thought that she would since she always cooks something for dinner even if it was a potluck dinner.


whatever.

Grey's 2-hour and Spidey's 2hr20min

Grey's

They're doing this "spin-off" on Addison's character and they started to introduce it through the two hour episode that they had last Thursday. Quite interesting and funny to see all those co-op doctors work and act. Also, I loved the fact that she was reuniting with her med school best friends. It makes for an interesting statement for me, because I want to reunite with my high school friends. Hayyy..

Also, the Shepherd and Mark moment was priceless. They're enemies and friends at the same time.

And seriously, the George and Izzie thing is pissing me off. Somehow it's like this past thing that I happened to me. I don't want them together, I like Izzie and Alex together.

Spider Man 3

(SPOILER ALERT)

"I'll die for my friends" - Harry

Yeah, he actually did. At a pivotal moment of this movie. Touching scene.

"Revenge is like a poison" - Aunt Mae

Yeah, VENOM covering Spider Man all up and a BELL helped him take it of.

"People always need some help, Peter, even Spider Man" - Mary Jane

"Harry, I need your help" - Peter Parker

You guys should seriously watch it. Best Spider Man movie among the trilogy.

Also, I watched the Fantastic Four trailer. Funny and action-filled. LOL.