"CAS"

I have it.. hihihihihi.. mostly on vivitar cameras..
went to goodwill store today and found them there..

i also learned a lesson today:

GO TO GOODWILL BEFORE YOU GO TO EBAY.

hihihihi..

now I have to find some expired films..

Pictures

while i live vicariously through other people's photos taken with their lomo cameras, i live now in the world of photoshop, trying to tweak some photos to look like pictures taken with lomo cameras.





Camera: Canon SX100 IS
Inspiration: Flickr Lomo Pool

revised BIRTHDAY/GRADUATION WISHLIST

- $$ for Philippine trip

- $$ for this cameras:

colorsplash
fisheye (Urban Outfitters sells the blue fish eye camera)

this is to relive my passion for photography. ever since i bought my new camera i've been itching to do it again.

- a job (any kind will do right now)

- flying colors during my graduation

- sunny day on my graduation date

I'm getting pissed off with my recollection of freshman chemistry stuff. Simple balancing of oxidation-redox reaction I can't even do. GGGRRRRR...

THIS IS WHY I DON'T LIKE GETTING SICK WHEN SCHOOL'S AROUND!!

on the flip side of things...




it's my new toy, my old camera's replacement. I haven't really fully played with it yet but from the stuff that I already uploaded, it's looking pretty darn nice. I'll get the chance to maximize it's capacity once the memory card for it arrives, hopefully before the twins' birthday party this Saturday.

ohhh.. did I mention it was black? hahahaha..

my chemistry 'non-cookbook' lab class starts its first experiment tomorrow. i've been trying to read the safety issues and the procedure. This lab class is a bit scary because of the accident stories (2 stories to be exact) that was told to us by the TAs/prof/manual that happened because of not following the safety procedures.

anyway, i'm excited for that lab, it seems like it would be the first chem lab that will not show the full procedure of each experiments. students have the chance to figure out what to do based on knowledge and readings. exciting and daunting at the same time since figuring a procedure on our own can be grueling and frustrating, but it's all base on fun, knowledge and learning. plus, it's a real world thing, everything can't be spoonfed to us as they say.

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music these days is pure crap. no one is making good music, every single song that repeats over and over the radio are made by martians. where are the good musicians?

i pity my ipod because it's not really getting the attention that it needs.

i had an accident late this year. it was my fault. i think after all the sayings and precautionary tales that i have received i have learned much. but one thing that they don't know is how much guilt i felt and stupidness i felt. at the time of the accident i have felt already that it was my fault. i didn't know how it was but i knew. i knew how things can skyrocket especially with my own insurance.

two times that i have been to an accident and twice that i cried and felt really bad getting in it. it wasn't fucking awesome.

i already received many tips on how to drive in the freeway and also in the city. and i am going to apply it.

and i will be careful.

if i don't i know that it will be the BUS for me or walk or have people drive me to wherever. and i really don't want that.

I passed Intro to Biochem!

and i'm so freakin happy about that..

one more quarter at UW. one more pre-req for med school.

then, GRADUATION!!

then, the complete real world.

then, maybe, med school.

my life right now consists of a holiday paying job, a style book by one of the most stylish person in this world that I know and my iBook.

In 2008, my life will contain many many many trips and hardships. But it's all good, it will all be worth it in the end.

I don't have much to say but,


MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

=)

CHRISTMAS WISHLIST

which also applies to my birthday and my graduation. hehehehe..

1) Steve Madden Riding boots

-been looking for a cheap one in EBAY... but the cheap ones get taken so quickly.. grrr
- This one is on sale in Nordstroms tried on a 6.5 but it was too small, so I'm guessing I am a seven.

2) Red coat

- size XS or S - pea coat or trench coat that go up to the half-thigh/thigh-half

3) The elusive Patrick Robinson for Target dress.

4) Christian Louboutin peep toe pumps in beige (riiigghhtt.. tried it on for the first at Barney's in Downtown Pacific Place, o mi gulay, it feels so good on the feet.. )

5) plane ticket to Philippines

6) $$ for Boracay/Batangas with friends in the Philippines

7) $$ towards my Black Macbook fund (which I am starting to build)

My warranty for my current Ibook is expiring this month. Hopefully after this month the book will fly solo with no sickness till the time I decide to purchase a new one.

8) For me to drive the 'good drive'. My latest accident wasn't too peachy with my insurance. I want to learn how to drive well in the freeway.

9) A hospital job - phlebotomist/chem technician/ekg taker.. preferably in Childrens Hospital

10) Vintage boots - only I can find

11) Memory foam pillow - not the contour one. the actual huggable pillow that conforms to your hug

12) starbucks GC

I think this is it

ADDITIONAL!!!!

13) SONY PSP!!!!
++ ULTIMATE MARVEL NEMESIS PSP, TOMB RAIDER, ULTIMATE ALLIANCE, MORTAL KOMBAT UNCHAINED GAMES

:(

I feel like I'm cursed in lab class right now. IT doesn't seem to miss one class where I don't make any mistakes, miscalculations or putting the wrong reagent in the mixture.

GAAAHH..

ok.. so i know I'm not suppose to think this way about this lab. i have to stay positive.

then again, how can one stay positive amidst all the stupidness and retardation that one is feeling everytime she is in the class?

GAAAHHH!!!

WE have a TREE!!

(me opening the front door of our house) ...

Aunt: "Oh! We have a tree in our house!"

Me (confused about a woman standing by my mom's bedroom door and my aunt's words) : "We have a Christmas tree already?"

Aunt (laughing): "No!! C'mere and look"

(me walking towards the dining room and seeing this part of the tree inside the house)

Me: "OH... THHHAAATT KIND OF TREE."

HEHEHEHE.. yeah so that was funny to me. But this happened after a windstorm that hit Seattle two weeks ago. Quite fun. Well, not really. IT was quite scary. But on the upside, hot firemen came to our house. yehehehehe.. well one of them is hot, the other two were a bit old already.

i guess when you open up yourself to something that you're usually not, you easily get torn down and be back to the reality that you're not suppose to be who you are usually not.

preppy fashionista

my mythology professor looks like a preppy fashionista. reason being? he's a harvard and yale alumni.. ahem.. i know, i'm biased.. but i have this pre-conceived notion that all people who go to those schools are preppy fashionistas.. don't have anything against them, in fact I admire their sense of style..

in conclusion, i like my mythology professor's sense of style. not all professors dress like him.

spinning in physical and mental state

three days ago, i had a car accident. it was one for the books for me as it was very meaningful albeit the scariness of it. i was driving towards the Veteran's Affairs hospital to finish up my job application there to become a clinical lab assistant, a job description that I liked so much because i get to practice blood drawing.

towards the exit sign, i got into the accident. the car that i was driving spun around.

before i had that accident, i came across interstate morning traffic. it was literally hell for me because i was so tired and so frustrated about the traffic. i begun into thinking if that job was the right job to take while i'm at my situation right now. i was weighing pros and cons, thinking of things to consider, thinking of things that i have to think about even before i make a decision. i was so confused and so dazed that i just prayed to God to give me a sign that tells me not to take the job anymore.

in comes the accident. a sign. a big sign.

my mental state that day was in daze and confused situation, however, the accident alleviated it quite a bit. although, i was traumatized i feel like that day was a big lesson for me that i for sure will remember for the rest of my life. i've learned a lot of things and one of those was to thank God for being there for me always.

if i would've taken that job, i would've been in a spin state. my head would be all clouded from all information from school and be tired from all the stresses of travelling back and forth from the hospitals and from selling my ass off in my retail job.

i'm graduating in 6 months. 6 freaking months. i'm panicked and i'm excited.

before i graduate, i want to make the grade. but in order for me to do that i have to make school as my #1 priority.

i have to make sacrifices in order to survive and be rewarded graciously.

to friends whom i don't see or talk to anymore, thanks for staying as my friend.
to family, thanks for being there for me and understanding.
to a guy who cares much, thank you for always believing.

Tibetan Personality Test

I ordered these 5 animals in preference:

horse - FAMILY
sheep - LOVE
cow - CAREER
pig - MONEY
tiger - PRIDE

I described these 5 in one word:

dog is playful - describes my personality
a cat is relaxed - describes the one that I am in a relationship with.
rat is dirty - describes my enemies (nyahahahaha.. )
coffee is yummy - describes how i see sex
sea is peaceful - what my life is (a.huh.)

I think of important people in my life and associate them with these colors:

yellow - Kuya Ice - I won't forget this person
orange - Ate Leah - she is my true friend
red - Tita Chi - I love this person.
white - Jan Jen - she's my twin soul
Green - Mom - someone that i will remember for the rest of my life

first day of school?!!??

5am - "THE WAY I ARE" by Timbaland wakes me up....

6am - i start walking towards the 185th bus stop. it's foggy and it's dark. OH WHAT FUN.

7am - i hang around Starbucks on 43rd St.

7:30am - BIOCHEM!!! YEYYYY!! Our first professor has an accent. But I keep imagining hitting myself in the head for sitting on the right hand corner of the classroom. So freaking hard to see well.

8:20am - I'm in Odegaard Library right now, writing this. After which, I shall go to the bathroom to release all the water I downed ever since 5:30am this morning.

GOOD MORNING PEEPS!!

The Ladies that I just love to hate

Samantha Brown

Gisele Bundchen

Rachel Ray

Heidi Klum

Travel? Model? Eat tasty foods? Did I mention travel?

I hate them.

VMA

I'm watching the Video Music Awards on MTV and can I just say the following:

BRITNEY. umm.. yeah, she ain't singing on her opening act. her dance moves, hmm.. she looks like she just doing some flimsy hand action.

HAAA.. where did all the fun go with her? Sarah Silvermann said it right, "She's only 25 and she has accomplished everything that she has to accomplish", ie. shave her head and go to rehab and have kids with some guy.

wehehehehe..

Awesome

THE NEW IPHONE, without the phone

everything i need.

There is more to life than material things.

There is more to life than a job that pays you six figures.

There is more to life than worrying about the smallest things.

I read in a magazine about a husband telling his wife not to worry if the car was not starting. He said, "No one is dying or having a heart attack, don't sweat it, we'll fix it". A man who knows his way with words. A man who lives up to the words "don't sweat the small stuff".

Material things are just that. Material. they cannot be immaterial because if they're mass produced, they're basically something that you can buy again if you lose it. I don't know why we very much thrive in a world where materialism seems to be a form of religion already. I admit, most of the time I tend to gravitate towards being materialistic but thankfully I can control myself, by saying to myself that it should not be like that. I should be happy with what I have.

Do I have everything? No. But I have a family that truly cares for my well being. I have great friends who are there for me in times of need no matter where they are and what they are doing. I have an education that has taught me quite a lot over the past years. I have a job that has taught me how to put myself out into the world. I will soon start a job that will help me save the world.

I don't have everything. But I sure have everything that will make me happy.

Since I work as a PT sales in the clothes, I've taken the action or the responsibility to make myself educated on the elements of style. When people ask me about certain questions about what outfit goes with what or what dress they can wear with what, I sometimes find myself in a rut or should i say, I find myself stammering while giving them answers. I guess it's very different to give style/fashion advice to people who you don't know compared to people that you know.

I've been reading up on this books

Before You Put that On by Lloyd Boston
How to be a Budget Fashionista by Kathryn Finney

and I have these books on hold at the library

Style by Kate Spade
A Guide to Elegance by some french woman who I can't spell the name here right now.

I don't know if the education that I'm gaining is helping the women (and men) who come in the store drowned in self confusion about what to wear and what not to wear.

GAAAHHH...

God, please help me give sound advice as well as good persuasion techniques.