friendly and familiar faces back home and a whole lot of random stuff.

i miss them sooooooooo...

damn you guys for being in sembreak!!! LOL... joke lang.. ihihi...

anyway, i miss them.

I've been trying to call one of them, but she's not answering her phone (well, it's either that, or her cellphone is trying to be primitive again). BAHHH!!

Sana binabasa nyo 'to 'no?? But knowing you guys well, you don't have much time and patience to read this.

anyway, despite the fact that you guys are not reading this. i'll still write messages....

Lin-Lin -- PARE!! yang cellphone mo itapon mo na!!! langya naman, ilang beses na kitang tinatawagan at ilang beses na rin akong niloloko nang cellphone mo na yan.. dude, when was the last time I talked to you???? I think it was your birthday.. tagal na rin men.. a month and a half..

Lenn -- as if i don't call you every other week.. sooo, i don't miss you that much.. hahahahaha.. joke.. miss kita sobra, kasi ang kulit mo!! hahahahaha.. dude, pare, kelangan natin ulit gawin yung inuman with gin?? remember that time when we're at nyo's place?? hahaha.. nung binilhan tayo nila Ron ng gin? tapos hindi natin naubos? tapos pinagalitan tau kasi di natin naubos?? hahahaha..

Joy -- hahahaha.. I saw you go online sa YM last night, but I went offline naman.. hehehe..

Heidi -- pagawa mo na yang house phone nyo!

Nat-- go on a break!! magpapetition ka sa school mo!! 1 month break from all the things they're putting you through.. i miss our bonding times on the phone.. kahit na alam ko na never kitang tinawagan kapag andito ko sa seattle........ and me miss our serious talks with some serious banterings about how dramatic each can get.. hahaha.. gets mo ba yun?? men, take a break!! and I promise I'll call you!! hahahaha..

Who else am i missing? dami!! hahahahaha.. yung isa siguro tatawagan ko sa araw na feel ko.. hahaha.. nakakatamad naman makipagusap sa tao kapag hindi mo alam kung anong ikukuento mo e....

Sayang, di ako makakauwi next year.. GRRR.. leche kasi e.. pero ok lang.. siguro Christmas next year uuwi ako!! WIIIHHH!!! I want too!! AYY!! that's an idea... ma-ipropose nga sa nanay ko.. HMMM... Salit kami ng tatay ko, ako sa Pilipins, tapos sya dito.. hahahaha.. mapagipunan nga.. para half bayaran ko, half bayaran nila.. hahahahaha.. kukuha na ko ng mas magandang trabaho next year.. para me pera for that!! o diba?? ang ganda ng plan ko??!!! excited na ko.. hahahaha.. Christmas with KIDS!! WIHHH!!! WAIIIITTT.... I just realized that Christmas is a peak season over there.. MEEENNN... haaa.. maybe I'll save a quarter of the ticket money.. who knows?? ipropose ko lang naman e.. hahahaha... basta... bala na si God.. Sana payag si momsy.. I will work hard sa studies, para pumayag.. hahahaha.. para incentive na lang yun.. wihhh!! Christmas next year in da Pilipins!!!

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Hmmm.. I just realized that I posted something everyday this week (except for yesterday). HAHAHA.. I made up for the past week of no posting.. hahahaha..

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By the way, regarding the last wish of the previous post, I really want to be that. Seriously. I mean, if I can do artsy shots, why can't I do photojournalistic shots?? Hmmm.. the past shots I made for the paper, wasn't all that. Napangitan ako, especially the last one.. I guess I could say that I'm practicing, so I shouldn't be so hard on myself.. hayy.. I have two weeks to collect assignments.. hahahahahaha.. Sana maraming ibigay.. hmmm... practice na 'to.. By the way, I should be able to stop being intimidated by the pro amateurs/pro in the staff.. la lang.. parang nakakababa lang kasi makiwork sa kanila, kasi ang gagaling ng mga shots nila.. haayy.. pero nakakatuwa kasi hindi sila yung tipong nagrerelease ng intimidating aura (I'm the only one that's actually feeling intimidated by them.. they're actually not releasing anything to me.. basta!! gets nyo na yun!! ehehhe.. ), kasi tinutulungan nila ako, tinuturuan nila ako.. tapos la lang.. parang they don't really put a lot of "pressure" on me since alam nila na bago ako.. basta ok sila!! hehehe.. sana hindi na ako mahiyang makisama sa kanila.. hehehe.. for those of you who know me well, I'm not really good at being social with people.. it's either they come up to me, or I don't talk to them at all.. hahaha.. yes.. I'm that much of a snob.. which is why I don't have a lot of friends.. hehehe..

By the way, my digital camera sucks at taking photoj pictures.. IT SUCKS!! Just look at the link of the last picture I took.. grrr... well.. actually... either the camera just sucks at taking photoj pictures or I didn't set the settings right. DAMN IT!! I need practice!!! I really wanna be good.. I wanna have a niche with photoj pictures too!! haayy.. pano kaya kung wala akong talent in taking photoj 'no?? grrr... oh well.. at least I will know that photoj is not my area of expertise.. makikita ko within this quarter.. I'm aiming for getting a picture in the front page of the paper.. hahahaha.. mangyari kaya?? HMMMM.. I shall wait and see..

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A conversation I had with my sister two weeks ago (I think):

sister: so Liane, I have a question for you, what are you gonna do after you're done with college?

me: I HAVE NO IDEA. (I'm saying this to her with a big smile on my face.)

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I just had coffee, hence the very long and random post.

Narealize ko nga lang pala this morning na maganda pala ang MORNINGS. hehehe.. 'la lang.. kasi while I was walking down the University Way, on the way to campus, na-feel ko lang na ang ganda ng MORNINGS.. hehehe.. 'la lang.. feel ko lang na at that moment while I was walking, I started to appreciate MORNINGS.. hehehe.. sayang sana dinala ko yung camera ko para napicturan ko yun.. HMP!!

Sige yun lang.. magrereview na ko para sa Philosophy.. I have a 4 pt quiz mamayang 11:30.. hahahaha.. oo nga pala, I don't like this philosopher because he's writings are confusing when I read them. His name is David Hume and according to my Philo TA, he's one of the most influential philosopher in the history of philosophy. I wonder what exactly made him influential when his writings are really hard to grasp. I guess people back in the days had more patience in understanding a Scottish man.

all i want for the holidays ....

So what if Christmas is 2 more months away? I'll post this list again when December arrives, but until then, force yourself to read it now. I got this from Marla.

STEP ONE

Make a post (public, friends-locked, filtered...whatever you're comfortable with) to your blog. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. the wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("i'd love a ______ icon that's just for me") to medium ("i wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("all I want for christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV."). the important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ or link to this post so that the holiday joy will spread.

STEP TWO

Surf around your friends list (or friends' friends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:

If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use -- do it.

You need not spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf -- to spread the joy. gifts can be made anonymously or not -- it's your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

..... i wish for .....

1. for F-R-I-E-N-D-S .... to get together without any bullshit, hypocritical, and contradicting attitudes roaming around.

2. for myself .... to get over some sibling issues.

3. for myself .... to own a digital SLR camera.

4. for myself .... to have a quarter to study abroad.

5. for myself .... to own a wool trench coat and cheap but sturdy pointy kitten heels (or one inch heels) pumps

6. for myself .... to own the Howie Day CD

7. for that person .... to get what they want.

8. for myself .... to have a date with anyone who's down to eat anything and everything in one day.

9. for myself .... to own a Tiger OS.

10. for myself .... to be a damn good photojournalist by the end of this year.

Or so She says...

"Binigyan ka pa ng isang anak ng Diyos para me kasama ka pag wala na ang mga nauna mong anak"

-- what my grandmother told my mom when my mom was wondering why I was given to her.

Mothers can be and maybe always will be an annoyance to us. But we can't blame them for being that way. It is imbedded in every mothers in this world to be annoying.

Mothers are protective. You can't blame them for having that kind of attribute because they were assigned by God to protect us. Plus, she didn't spend 9 months of her life carrying you in her stomach and just waste that 9 months out by just letting you be in this big, bad world without any sense of defiance for yourself.

Mothers are good advisers, in fact, they're the best advisers in the world. We all know the saying "mom knows best", it's cliche, I know, but it holds true up until today.

Some people are not lucky enough to have met their mother because it was either their mom (a) died while giving birth to them, (b) they're mother left them at a young age, or (c) they're mother is abusive and just wasn't the type that would get to know her kid. Yet some people are lucky enough to have a mother that was there during the "firsts", the "lasts", the heartaches, the happiness, the sadness and so forth.

I'm lucky to have my mother with me today. And no matter how annoying and nagger-ish she gets, I'm still glad that I have her. Kung wala sya, baka siguro naging pariwara ako.

Love your moms. Love all their qualities. Kasi sila minamahal nila ang kanilang mga anak, inspite of the bad qualities that they see in their kids. Kaya dapat ganon rin tayo sa kanila.

"Good things come to those who wait patiently."

lahat na ginagawang maganda at nakakaantig sa puso, ginusto na.

lahat ng ginagawang panget pinalalampas pagkatapos ng ilang araw na pagdadamdam.

kahit na alam na walang kahulugan ang mga sinasabi, binibigyan pa rin ng kahulugan.

hanggang kelan ba magtatagal yun?

hanggang kelan ba magtitiis?

sabi ng iba, tanga raw ang magtiis sa wala.

sabi naman ng iba, pag nagtiis me mahihita sa huli.

ang hirap hindi isipin ang hindi dapat isipin.

ang hirap isipin ang dapat isipin.

ganda talga ng buhay.

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Back from hell week, I am. I had to deal with 3 midterms and 1 paper. But it is officially over today. One hell week down, 2-3(?) more to go.

I don't have much to tell. So I bid you goodbye.

Up Mountains, Up Walls, Up High

He who climbs upon the highest mountains laughs at all tragedies, real or imaginary.
- Friedrich Nietzsche, Thus Spake Zarathustra

Since my tuition is paying for the Intramural Activities Building, I should probably start going there and make some use out of it. The building has an indoor climbing center that is perfect for satisfying my interest of wanting to climb a wall again.

I've always been wanting to climb walls again ever since I tried it two years ago. I had a chance once when me and my friends were strolling around the Seattle Center arcade area where there is a single wall that entices people to satisfy their whims to be Spider Man. I didn't climb then because I didn't have the right footwear for it and it didn't really look safe to me. The first time I climbed it felt safe because (1) I had my sister, Lee, as my belay-er (the one that holds the strings attached to me while I climb) and (2) the place where I first climbed at had cushioned mats, the Seattle Center one didn't have either of those.

Now I have a perfect chance to climb again. I don't know when I'll do it. I would probably want someone to go with me there and be my belay-er. But yeah, I just want to climb walls again. It's fun and exciting and scary at the same time. It actually helps ease my fear of heights.

And as for the quote that I pasted above, I know that climbing walls is totally different from climbing mountains. But I'm sure it feels rather the same. I want to climb walls again because I want to laugh my way through problems again. If I climb and reach the top, I can sense that I will feel that I'm leaving my problems down the bottom where they belong.

"For any one to love a man, he must be hidden, for as soon as he shows his face, love is gone."
- The Brothers Karamozov, Fyodor Dostoevsky

I just experienced my first "out-of-borough" lifestyle, today. It's not bad actually, it feels rather good. It feels good to accomplish something without any distractions whatsoever. Not that I'm saying that my "borough" stuff, i.e. my friends, were a distraction (I MISS YOU GUYS, really seriously... UVILLAGE people!! Blue C Sushi!! Who's with me? :D But not now.. hehehe.. I know we're all busy), but it's nice to be able to prioritize again .... well, sort of. I think I'm on the road of accomplishing my goal of making my studies my ultimate #1 priority. I actually blew a photog assignment today because I was behind with my readings for Philo and Biochem. But the reason that I got behind was that I had to shoot an event yesterday, so all is well. I think I pretty much got that down. I hope.

@ 10/08

10/08

@ The weather cooperates with me today. It knows what I'm currently feeling. I'm in Starbucks right now, trying to burn my brain cells out and currently regretting not bringing my camera with me so I could shoot how great this day was for me.

@ Doctors are the third cause of premature deaths: As stated by a stranger to me while I was studying Philosophy.

@ My friend was right, I was not the disturbingly dramatic girl that I am now before. I don't know what caused me to change into this way. I'm taking another friend's advice, take a shot of C2H5OH and whatever it is that's making you dramatic will surely be way out of your head the next day.

@ My job may not give me much in the financial means of things, but it will surely make me happy to see my photo printed out every week in that paper.

@ Being f*cked up means being inspired to do some good work, whether it be in the arts or in sciences.

For the sake of updating you about my (fill in) life.

While I was walking in the Health Sciences Library at the U, I saw a doctor listening to an iPod while walking. Seeing that made me smile because it made me realize that going into medicine does not mean giving up your other niches (i.e., in my case, music and photography).

I am starting to feel the college stress again. I'm currently struggling with some of my Biochem class' concepts, which is sad because the concepts that I'm struggling with are concepts that I took up when I was in General Chem. People, I'm one of the living proofs that if you don't study a "step" in a sequence very well, you will most likely to not do good in the next "step".

Another stress is my Philosophy class. I never thought how annoying overanalyzing is until I started that class. Reading the textbook is a pain in the butt because most of the essays are 16 pages long and are written by major overanalyzers. And if you know me very well, you know that I don't like reading that much, especially forced reading. Anyway, I'll stop complaining, the professor makes up for the long readings during class anyway. She explains the readings in layman's term and she makes the class fun by being frank and to the point.

So far my life as a transfer is ok. I'm just not use to walking a lot. Yesterday, I attended FASA's meeting that was on the other side of the campus from where I am. Oh the joys of walking back and forth.

Ok, class time.

Iskul.

School is good. School is great.

1) I love love my classes.

- Economics - I now know what the word ECONOMY means. I always had the impression that the word economy pertains to financial stuff. Well, in this class, I learned that it's not. Fascinating. Me want to learn more.

- Intro to Philosophy - Ahhhh.. this is my writing class, the one that will fulfill the writing requirement of my major. If this is this, then that is that. But if this is that, then that is this.

- Biochemistry - The chemistry of biology will be revealed in this class. So far, I'm loving it. Although the pH talks and the buffer talks are kinda throwing me off a bit.

I just got the rest of my books last Friday. Thank GOD! I was starting to panic because I haven't done any reading for my Philosophy class (One of the university's gazillion libraries had my Econ book on reserve, so I had no problem with that.), and my section started to discuss what the Apology of Plato is and how was Philosophy described by our professor (who by the way is the one who wrote the textbook that we are using for that class.) last Friday. But all is well now because my books are here.

2) I got a "job" at the university's newspaper, The Daily. It's a photographer position.

3) I got lost X times in that campus. I swear. LOL. It's a pretty big campus. And I think this is one of the rare times that I wish that I know how to use a bike.

4) BYE for now.

:D