How To Deal . .

And it's like, every time I turn around
I fall in love and find my heart face down and
Where it lands is where it should
This time it's like
The two of us should probably start to fight
Coz something's gotta go wrong
Coz I'm feeling way to dam good, oh
Feelin' way too damn good

Sometimes I think best if left in the memory
It's better kept inside than left for good
Lookin' back each time they tried to tell me
Well something's gotta go wrong
Coz I'm feelin' way too damn good
- feeling way too damn good, nickelback

How Cruel People Can Get

What is up with people with leaving their dogs in their cars while they shop, eat, or hear mass??

It just pisses me off whenever I see a dog left in a car while their so-called "best friends" are out flaunting around thinking that their pets can surmount the hotness or coldness that their car can get.

Just leave the dog in your freaking house!

ang dami kong namimiss

i miss my two best friends.
namimiss ko ang mga laugh trips namin.
namimiss ko mga "talks" namin.
namimiss ko silang kausapin.
namimiss ko yung katarayan nilang dalawa
namimiss ko yung tamang "trippings" namin sa isa't isa
namimiss ko yung mga "reality checks"
namimiss ko yung mga "advices" nila

i miss my "closest-to-best" guy friend.
ang tagal na naming di naguusap
namimiss ko yung mga kalokohan namin
namimiss ko yung mga kuentuhan namin about life
namimiss ko syang bara-barahin
namimiss ko rin yung balugaan naming dalawa
namimiss ko rin yung perspective nya tungkol sa mga bagay bagay

Hay.. Life ...

marami kang expectations sa sarili mo
matataas ang tinatry mong abutin
pag di mo naabot
nagdadrama ka
iiyak ka
magrereklamo ka

pag mataas ang expectation mo sa sarili mo
wala ka
lagi ka na lang magiging stressed
lagi ka na lang seryoso

pinarealize na sayo ng ibang tao yan dati
pero hanggang ngaun di mo pa rin ginagawan ng paraan
para maayos

kelan mo gagawan ng paraan?
kapag wala ng tao sa tabi mo
para makinig sa mga reklamo mo?

andyan si God..
nasa tabi mo lang
iniintay ka lang nyang kausapin mo sya tungkol dun
ikaw naman
di mo kinakausap

ang mga ganong bagay ...

di na kelangang ulit-ulitin
di na kelangang pansinin
di na kelangang alalahanin
di na kelangang bigyan ng panahon
nakakapagod kasi
wala kasing kuenta kung pagtutuunan ng sobra sobrang pansin

marami pang bagay ang mas importante
marami pang bagay ang mas dapat bigyan pansin
marami pang bagay ang mas magpapasaya
marami pang bagay ang mas magpapagaan ng loob

Super Late Photos of Southborder

(Forgive the quality of the pictures. I had to zoom in on them since we're far from the stage. Forgive the presentantion also. I'm telling you, playing around with Photoshop at 1:30 in the morning does not create good presentantions.)

This is a very late post about their concert that I attended last year at Baker Hall in UP Los Banos. As far as I can remember, while watching them croon the crowd with their ballads, my friend and I can't stop oogling over Duncan. This band put up a very good show despite their constant change of lead singers.

Greatest Fear Realized

You're afraid that when something good happens to your life, something bad will swoop in and take that good away from you.

Awww.. How Cute is This?

photo c/o: google images

carpa diem

a friend told me to "seize the moment". carpe diem daw. (ahem.. kleia.)

i don't think i can do it. i'm afraid to get hurt. i'm afraid to get burned. i'm afraid that i won't be able to live up to the moment.

hmm.. talk about living a good life.

back to the uptight and rigid moi.....

errr... University of Washington accepted me!! WIHH!!!!!

So.. that entry that I made about me going to Seattle Pacific University ... hehe.. erase it from the memory.. hehehe..

GAIL... SARAH... Please don't kill me... :D

Tragic and Pathetic

another picture post

Stuck in A Moment

"waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought, useless and disappointing."

--- Sam to Austin in A Cinderella's Story

I watched A Cinderella's Story again today. I couldn't do anything today that doesn't involve my bed in it. The upper one quarter of my body is hurting a lot right now. WOOT. Time to see the doctor; the idea that I dread the most.

I watched Star Wars Episode 3 yesterday with friends. It's a better movie than the second one. I'm thinking now that I should rent Episodes 4-6 since I completely have forgotten about what happened in those movies. I watched it like a few years back when I was still a kid.

MMKAI.. Time to go.

Star Wars III: Revenge of the Sith --- OPENING DAY!!

WHO WANTS TO WATCH IT?? C'MON PEOPLE.. PLEASE.. GO WITH ME.. I WANNA WATCH IT.. BADLY... PLEASEEEE.. PLEASEEE... I'LL BUY YOU POPCORN.. I PROMISE.. JUST WATCH IT WITH ME.. PLEASSSEEEE...

PLEEEEASSSEEEEEEEEEEEEE?????

[*ahem* paging J.J. (",)]

New Song - Heard It from the One Tree Hill TVS

Click this link --->> MP3 <<--- to hear the song.

Mixtape

by: Butch Walker

You say hello, inside I'm screaming I love you
You say goodnight, in my mind
I'm sleeping next to you.
You drive away from my car crash of a heart
And I don't know...

But you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than
that, about me and you..

You talk to him, and it burns me like the sun
You talk to her, and you say that you feel
Like he's the one
I talk to me, but you can't hear the pain I
Feel, you don't know..

'Cause you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the sad songs ain't so sad
I only wish that there was more than
That, about me and you..

(bridge)
Oh, don't turn around and say bye again
Yeah it crushes my head when you call me
Your friend and I'm not the same person
From back in the day in the back of the
Class that you thought was gay
No I can't find the words 'cause I lost them
The minute they fell out my mouth
And it's love and I'm in it, so give me your
Lips and just let me kiss 'em and let's
Get messed up and listen to probably..

The best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than
That, about me and you

It struck a chord somewhere in me.

You can also hear this song on the One Tree Hill Soundtrack.

Fickle-Fickle

I've been a very fickle person for the past week or so. I delete entries that I post, I change my mind about my major, I change my mind about "other" stuff, and the list just goes on. I'm starting to annoy myself.

The reason why I'm indecisive? I honestly don't know.

But I have my reasons on why I've been deleting entries. First of all, I don't think that their content sends out what I'm really trying to say and second of all, I just thought that they were a bit too shallow.

Anyway, my mom did my laundry again for the second week in a row. I'm not complaining, I just don't want her to do it, I want ME to do it. I told her about it and she just gave me her signature "taray" look and said, "dapat nga mag-thank you ka imbis na magangal ka". So, yes she has a point there, but still, I feel that I'm the one who should be responsible for it since it is my stuff. Hay.. Mothers .. You can't live without them.

A Positive Attitude Coming from A Positive Woman

I admire how my mom handle her problems. I admire how she stays positive in the midst of money problems, health problems and work problems. Just today, she told me: "Di bale na na naoverboard ako sa payment, basta ba maganda ang aking hair".

I wish I had her positive attitude sometimes.

I wish I could say "di bale nang 2.0 ako sa Organic Chem, basta ba nandito ang computer ko sa tabi ko, solve na ko". But it's not always easy to say it, nor is it easy for me to focus on such positive words. There's always this thing called "pessimism" that creeps up on me.

I guess that's life, it's complicated that way.

Mood Swings Galore

We all have it one way or the other. One minute you're happy and the next thing you know you're as sad as the homeless guy living at the corner of 5th Avenue.

Life is complicated that way. You can never figure out what makes your happiness go away in just a blink of an eye. You can never figure out what's bothering your head even if you do a whole lot of overanalyzing and contemplating.

It's hard to face people when you undergo a certain change in attitude. Sometimes, people tend to think that you're just making "drama" or that you're just looking for attention.

Life is so complicated that way.

BIG Realization

I just realized that my dog, Curly, is a BIG WEIRDO.

Here's why:

1. He's afraid of things that are smaller and less stronger than him, i.e., the vacuum cleaner, plastic bags, folding tables, the can of chocolates, and well, I already forgot the other stuff.

2. He still sleeps in this teeny tiny bed that he sleeps in when he was little. Just look:



3. He likes his DRY dog food wet. He hasn't been eating his food dry for the past week and I always catch him eating our other dog's food (which we wet because our other dog can't chew well anymore). So I figured today, why not wet his food with water? So, after I put water in his food, he started eating it. Here's proof:



Is there such a saying as "what the master IS like, IS what the dog will be like"? Cause, I swear if there is one, I will laugh my ass off.

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"driving at 160 mph is therapeutic"
"listening to an ipod that is crunked up to high volume is therapeutic"
"crying is therapeutic"
"impulse shopping is therapeutic"

I have done three out of four of these.

When can I do the first one?

is it a risk worth taking? (edited)

(To the ladies and gentlemen who have participated in the mini discussion of this blog entry: A new comment has been made by someone who has gained A LOT OF LESSONS FROM EXPERIENCES IN THE "LOVE" department. I personally think that this comment may help some of you figure out some things that is bothering your head.)

I have a friend who says that he/she will take the risk of telling someone that they "like" (like, meaning, maybe we can be friends, then maybe we can be more than friends) them if it was worth it.

I admire them for that because they're not afraid of the consequences that might come their way if they do tell. They said that even if they get rejected, at least, they won't regret not telling it.

But isn't it paradoxical to think about this? We were always told to guard our hearts from the potential misleads and expectations that can hurt it, but then, we always read or always hear the phrase, "tell them how you feel about them because if you don't, you might regret it in the future".

I think that's where I'm at right now. I'm stuck in between two outlooks where I can't seem to get myself out of.

I guess some of you who are reading this right now, know from experience what I'm talking about.

Therefore, I salute you for the courage to stand right in front of that someone and pretending to be "just a friend" to him or her. I also salute the people, who had the courage to tell their "someone" that they like them.

Asteg kayo!