Feast of the.... ummm.. what's the English word for "Nayon"?

1. It was an OK event. It was so hot that day though. Sun was shining so bright. Its rays just stung our skin like there was no tomorrow (Ok, I exaggerated that part.. but seriously, it was really hot.. MANILA hot...).

2. I had my craving for pansit palabok fulfilled. Although, it tasted like well.. I dunno.. I can't describe it without using "evil" words.

3. We saw this booth stand where they were selling "Filipino-labeled" t-shirts. It was expensive though, $15 for a shirt. But Jenn bought one!

This is the design of the shirt she bought

This is me, trying to... umm.. model? it.

4. There was a looonnnng line at the food booth that sells the supposedly, "Best HALO HALO in this side of Manila". The "BEST" costs $4; it tasted like WATER.

I took this picture while we're in line to buy.

5. The Filipino-American Student Association, also known as FASA, based at the University of Washington had a booth there too. I grabbed some info because I'm planning to join it. Coolness.

BEST PART of the DAY: PICTURE TRIPPINGS!!!



.... on the way home .....


.... and because Jenn and I got bored, pinagtripan namin si Carl at si Kuya God.. wehehehe ....

Meet Curly's New Pal

Curly and Cosmo

They're all set to take a walk down Greenlake Park. CUTENESS!

Curly: "Hey, this dog looks like me"

Curly looks so light compared to Cosmo

GRR!!! CUTEE!!

The guy's name is Bob. He was the one who "adopted" Curly for a week. He owns Cosmo.

(click on the pictures to view a larger size.)

Classic. Just Classic.

I forgot how a Macintosh operating system sucks when it comes to gaming compatibility. I'm currently having this obsession of wanting to play classic games, games that I played when I was a kid. Trying to find a MAC version of these games in the net is a total pain in the butt for some versions are DOS base and others are WINDOWS compatible.

1. Prince of Persia.


and

2. Super Mario Bros.


I guess I should just stick to good ol' PACMAN.

Inspite the ODDS

Ever wonder how you still end up liking something that annoys the heck out of you? That inspite of how this something annoys you or how it just manages to do something that completely turns your stomach upside down, you still end up liking it?

Kahit na me gawin pang katangahan o kalokohan, nakakaya mo pa ring gustuhin yung bagay na yun.

Assumptions destroy everything. YUN LANG PO.

If people assume stuff about someone or something and then let's the whole public know about their "assumptions", without even confirming if it is true or not, I just feel "sorry" for them.

If you have "assumptions", may I suggest to you that you first confirm whether or not your assumptions are true before letting the public know about it.

Confirmation is like science people. Here's how: You first write down your hypothesis (your assumption, that is), then you make observations, then you test out your observations by asking, experimenting or surveying. After you've done all that, then you go make your own conclusions base on the results of your tests.

That's not hard now is it?

I shouldn't say that I'm a saint who doesn't assume at all. I'm also guilty of it. But I know how to control it and I know where I should draw the line.

Wishin' and Hopin'

i wish i have a long lost twin brother/sister. i wish that one day he or she will come by the house and tell my parents that he or she is the son or daughter that they gave away right after he or she was born. when he or she does come, at least i have someone to talk to during the ungodly hours that i'm awake, like right now.

hayy.. it doesn't hurt to wish right?

Only GOD Knows Why

Only God Knows Why
by Kid Rock

I've been sittin' here Tryin' to find myself
I get behind myself I need to rewind myself
Lookin' for the payback Listen for the playback
They say that every man bleeds just like me

-- Every person has the experience of struggling to find what they want to do with their lives. I'm going through that experience right now and I know a few people who are also going through it too. It feels good knowing that you're not alone in the struggle to figure out what you really want. It feels good to know that there are people in this world who are going through the same thing that you are going through.

And I feel like number one Yet I'm last in line
I watch my youngest son And it helps to pass the time
I take too many pills It helps to ease the pain
I made a couple of dollar bills still I feel the same

-- Sometimes my self esteem can go down the drain when things just don't go the way that I want them to go. I find things that could temporarily cure such insanity, but in the end, when the cure wears off, I'm still knee deep in sh*t.

Everybody knows my name They say it way out loud
A lot of folks fuck with me It's hard to hang out in crowds
I guess that's the price you pay To be some big shot like I am
Out strecthed hands and one night stands Still I can't find love

-- I have experienced being treated like s**t by some people, yet I still manage to put up with them and their s**t.

And when your walls come tumbling down
I will always be around
And when your walls come tumbling down
I will always be around

People don't know bout the things I say and do
They don't understand about the shit that I've been through
It's been so long since I've been home
I've been gone, I've been gone for way too long

-- People are judgmental. It's one of the sad sad truths that I've learned in this life. They assume things about you when they don't even have any clue about who you are and what you are and the most annoying part about it, is that they don't take the time to get to know who you are before judging you.

Maybe I forgot all the things I've missed
Oh somehow I know there's more to life than this
I said it too many times And I still stand firm
You get what you put in And people get what they deserve

-- I've messed around a lot which resulted to a lot of consequences. I've f****d up twice and sometimes thrice. I sometimes don't learn, but most of the time I do. I'm thankful that I'm surrounded by people who makes me realize how sh*tty I become when I'm messed up.

Still I ain't seen mine No I ain't seen mine
I've been giving just ain't been gettin'
I've been walking that thin line
So I think I'll keep on walking With my head held high
I'll keep moving on and only God knows why

-- I have given a lot to people around me. I don't expect to receive anything in return. But sometimes some people takes advantage of that. But, I still give.

Only God.....Only God
Only God knows why
Only God....knows....why, why, why oh only God knows why

-- Yeah, Only HE knows the why, the what and the how in my life. I've been lagging behind with my spiritual journey. I haven't read the Bible for quite a while now. It's sad because I remembered before that the only thing that kept me sane constantly is the word of God and God himself. Before, I always end my day by reading the Bible and praying to God. Now, I end my nights by surfing the net, blogging, and doing things that are so mundane and so shallow.

I realized that the things that I'm going through right now, all the crap that I'm feeling and thinking are due to me not wanting God to intervene with my life. I've been shutting Him out, not wanting Him to help me deal with my personal struggles.

I have messed up perspectives, which makes me look like a hypocrite. And now I know the reason behind all of it, it's because I did not want God to be there to straighten and strengthen them out.

Take me to the river eh
Wont you Take me to the river, hey hey heyeah

God played a joke on me.

I slept late again last night and by late, I mean 3:30-ish am late. I know... CLASS AT 7:30am. So, you can imagine the anguish and the frustration that I had when I woke up at exactly 7:07am, thanks to my dad who never fails to wake me up by just opening my door very hard. Today wasn't the regular days that I could just skip-to-my-lou with. I have a Math quiz which is given at promptly 7:30am and collected at 8, so I was in desperate need to get to school at exactly 7:30am.

So, I got up from my bed, did bathroom duties, got dressed and then headed out.

When I arrived, I headed to the classroom and to my dismay, there was a sign posted on the door of the room that said:

"MATH 126, 7:30-8:45am: CANCELLED, QUIZ WILL BE GIVEN TOMORROW, 19th OF JULY."

Hoookaaaiii... So I got back in the car, and I thought to myself that God must be laughing at me right now and saying, "HA-HA, GOTCHA... NEXT TIME, SLEEP EARLY!"

And with that thought came the thought of buying coffee for me and my dad (as a token of my appreciation for waking me up and because I kinda felt bad for making a face at him while he was trying to tell me something as I was backing out of the driveway.. so it's basically the caffeine bribe.... YES, I know.. BAD DAUGHTER.. )

In a way, this morning's class cancellation is a blessing to me because I didn't really want to take a quiz with an empty stomach and with a brain that's half asleep. So, thank you God for that.

Man.. I just realized that I wasted $1 for a whole day parking permit. ARGGGHHH...

Oh well.. at least I learned a lesson.

in the midst of desperation.... GAAHH!!

(sorry, i just had to write this in Tagalog)

nakakamiss makipagusap sa lalake.... ewan ko. I know na I do talk to my guy friends.. pero yung mga talks namin na yun, e mga casual talks lang.. mga ganon lang.. namimiss kong makipagusap ng seryosohan... yung tipong magshashare kayo ng problems sa life... tapos, pagkatapos nyong mag-share.. tatawanan nyo yung isa't isa at sasabihan nyo ang isa't isa ng, "ang drama natin!"

ewan ko... hindi naman ako sawa sa mga babae kong kaibigan e.. pero minsan syempre, gusto ko rin ng point of view ng mga lalake.. kas mas logical sila minsan, since they think with the left side of their brains.... (no offense sa mga girls out there)

masarap makipagusap sa lalake lalo na kapag me kasamang beer! LOL. kasi mas open sa isa't isa.. no holds barred...

ngayon, namimiss ko yung ka-close kong lalake sa Pilipinas. hay nako.. kung bat kasi kelangan pang umalis.. hehehe.. hay nako.. anyway, wish ko lang e makapagusap kami nun minsan.. yun lang pow.

tutulog na ko. titigil ko na kakaisip ko. ahahaha.. lecheng Starbucks na yan, kept me awake until 4. hahahahaha.. sisihin daw ang kape. hay nako.

Anyway, I leave you with a sunset picture that I took while we were cruising through I-405 yesterday. Don't mind the blurry rear lights or the trees. Mind the orange/bluish color of the sky.


A funny anecdote (happened while I was trying to take the picture above):

So, I was trying to take the picture above using the different settings of my camera. I went and tried out the night setting one. I completely forgot that it's default settings was on flash. So, when I fired the shutter, the flash was so bright that it creeped the heck out of my sister.

kapatid: LIANE NAMAN E!! SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME! I THOUGHT THAT WAS LIGHTNING.

(my mom was reprimanding me for wasting my camera's batteries, while my dad was laughing his ass off)

me: *laughing out real loud*

kapatid: GOD!! Scared me!!

husband ni kapatid: ohhh.. Sam (that's their pet names for each other), it's ok I'm here..

kapatid: (talking with a baby voice) Can you pull over and drop her off this freeway?

husband ni kapatid: (laughing)... it's ok ... I'm here..

(my dad still laughing)

me: Why did you think that was lightning? It's not even raining.. (yeah i know.. bad reasoning.. blame it on the latte i was chugging while i was playing with the camera)

kapatid: AY NAKO!

- THE END

Relate, Relate

from POSTSECRET

Thin, Thinner, Thinnest

(Note: Forgive me if there is any bias-ness in this entry. I'm not discriminating people. I'm just writing about my own experiences. )

What is it with people's viewpoints on thin people?

I have had my fair share of reactions and looks whenever I meet people for the first time. I know that once they shake my hand, they look at me from head to toe and I see it in their eyes that look, that certain look, that says, "damn, this girl's anorexic". A bit generalized I know, but that's just how I think of such.

I had a fair share of banters about me being thin. However, I only accept them from people that are really closely associated to me like my family and some of my close friends. It doesn't really bother me when my family does it to me since I can do it to them as well since most of them are thin too and as for my close friends, I'm just really that close to them that I rarely get mad at them for teasing me. But when a complete and total stranger or an acquaintance does it to me, I just go bizerk. I don't know the reason for it, but I just do.

I guess what really gets to me is when people comment (subtly or blatantly) on how I can't do things such as heavy lifting. Once, while I was carrying a heavy box towards a car, this guy friend of my mom just out of the blue blurted out, "ako na magbuhat nan, baka mabali buto mo". WTF was that? In split-second he just ruined my day. Why? Because (1) this is a guy whom I am not closely associated with, and (2) this is a guy who doesn't even know who I really am.

Another is when I play sports. Ok, so I may be thin and I may look like I can't throw a ball high up in the air or I can't get the ball go above the net. But for crying out loud, give me some credit or even just the benefit of a doubt. First of all, I don't play sports that much but when I do I usually do it for fun (Heck, I make fun of myself if I shoot an airball from the free throw line). Also, I don't get a lot of practice playing sports, therefore, when I play, I may not be the player who can throw far, serve hard, hit hard or shoot hard.

I've faced a lot of challenges regarding my physique and most of them I've been able to cope up with or I would rather say, I got through them with the help of CONFIDENCE

Being thin does not mean that I'm a wimp who can't do stuff that people with average physique does.

And for people who just loves to stare and judge secretly: How about getting to know me before you judge me? And by the way, just so you know, I have a strong dog who weighs more than me, whom I wrestle and push around all the time. JUST SO YOU KNOW.

Sex and the City + Math = A "Hopefully" Good Combination

For the first time, I got the chance to hug Curly tight without him budging.

***

I'm craving for baked oysters with mayo again. DAMNIT! WHY MUST I CRAVE WHEN I'M BROKE?

***

For Math: one exam down, two more to go.

Here's to hoping that my cramming, while watching Sex and the City, till 3 am pays off.

(UPDATE: My instructor in Math just posted this morning's exam solution sheet in her website. I got 5 out of 6 answers right. But I'm worried because I didn't do that much solutions work like she did in that solution sheet.

God, please tap my math professor's shoulder and tell her to give her diligent Calculus students many many partial points. In Christ's name I pray.)

First exam in Org. Chemistry tomorrow. *Must memorize TEN reaction mechanisms*

Ignorance can be a Bliss.

"Ignorance of the Bible is ignorance of Christ."

One of the few lessons I've learned today in mass.

Chronicles of Curly: Him and his BIG butt

I just love making fun of my dog. HAHAHAHAHA.. Perfect Best Friend Talga sya, kasi hindi sya gumaganti.... hahahahahaha... LOL...



and because I love science and technology.... well.. sort of.. I took a survey made by the MIT folks:

It Takes an Empty Chair to Figure Things Out ...

later on....

Papa

I realized that everytime my dad comes over here, I always have the power to cajole him into buying me something expensive. Last December, I asked him to buy me the Photoshop 3.0 software from the Apple Store. Just today, at the outlet mall in Marysville, I cajoled him (and my sister) into buying me the jacket that I've been eyeing in Adidas ever since my last visit there.

And just thinking about it right now, I'm lucky enough to make him buy me something expensive, since he has the tendency to be stingy when it comes to buying something, cheap or expensive.

And because I rarely get to ask him to buy me something (cheap or expensive), I think I deserve to cajole him into buying me those stuff. Plus, among my siblings, I'm the most "shy" one in asking him to buy me something. So yeah, I know I deserve it. HE.HE.

Don't make assumptions just yet. I'm not a daddy's girl; I'm very much far from it. I'm not that close to him, but, I joke around with him and tell stories to him, sometimes.

My dad's a cool guy. Well, scratch that, he can be cool .... sometimes. Sometimes, he can get annoying when he's makulit. I always laugh whenever he mispronounces words like.... uhhh...... I forgot the words that he always mispronounces..... hehehe.. sorry. I also laugh at him when he jokingly piss off my mom. He's also a strict guy, he always asks me questions whenever I'm gonna go out with friends (of course what parents don't ask questions right?). He's also strict with grades, but I think he became laid back when I started college. He also has these little quirks that sometimes annoys that heck out of me, my mom and my sister. Quirks like, taking a heck of a lot of time shopping. Just today at the outlet mall, he browsed at one store for a long time and then went out without even buying anything and when he did find something that he wants to buy, it takes an hour for him to decide whether he wants to buy it or not. Well, hehehe.. I'm a hypocrite, I, as well as my eldest sister, also take a lot of time shopping, so I guess that's one quirk that we both got from him.



on a shopaholic's note: I realized that it's o.k. to buy shoes, suits, jackets, jeans, and bags that are expensive (and also of good quality) since you'll be using them for a long period of time. It's also o.k. to be cheap with dresses, shirts, blouses, tanks, and swimsuits since you can never be too sure of how safe they will be in the washer and dryer.

on a frustrated writer's note: I'm sorry for the grammatical errors. I'm too lazy to edit them out.

because I ♥ them ..... *siggh

*****

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Chronicles of Curly

I saw how frustrated he was on wanting to carry the brick. He keeps barking at it whenever he can't manage to lift it. Funny Dog.

Cause I have Nothing Better To Do . .

The Rules:
1. Write something about 15 different people.
2. You can NOT say who they are.
3. If someone asks you which one is about them, you can NOT tell.

1. praning sya, sira-ulo sya, good instincts, well-rounded sa lahat ng bagay, makulit sya to the point na gusto mo na syang batukan dahil sa kakulitan nya.

2. sira-ulo din sya, tumatawa five minutes after crying and has good instincts as well.

3. i laugh at the way she laughs, makulit, babaw ng kaligayahan, daling patawanin.

4. minsan hindi ko sya maintindihan.

5. kunwaring tahimik, pero nung nakilala ko na sya, ang kulit kulit na nya.

6. laging hindi puede sa galaan.

7. sabi nya nung una daw nya akong nakilala, kala nya ang taray taray ko daw.

8. gago, tarantado, sira-ulo ... pero matinong kausap pag seryoso ang pinaguusapan.

9. talino nya ... she's done well sa school ... namimiss ko na sya.

10. tahimik sya... miss ko na rin sya.

11. parang seal at horse kung tumawa.. me kasamang 'oink' kung minsan.. LOL ... (I WUV YOUUU!!! {",})

12. laugh trip pag kasama sya.

13. buddy ko 'to. iyakin sya.

14. muntik ko na "daw" syang mapaiyak dahil sa kakulitan ko.

15. she's narcissistic, sira ulo din, mabait na confidante

Compilation of this Week's...err.. Stuff ...

Fete De La Musique

I wish I was in the Philippines to experience this:

Fete de la Musique

It's a musical event featuring OPM bands from different genres of music.

I'm craving live artist performance, not the concert, but the bar type performance, acoustic performance that is. I hope I'll get the chance to see some after graduating. I hope.



DREAMS

I don't know whether I should believe in dreams or not.

I sometimes find myself not wanting to believe them because of how exaggerated they can get. Yet, sometimes I believe them for they seem to answer the questions that I have in my waking stage.

*
I searched Google about God and dreams and I got this from this:

"After this, I will pour out my spirit upon all flesh: and your sons and daughters shall prophesy: your old men shall dream dreams , and your young men shall see visions in those days I will pour out my spirit upon servants and maidens. I will show wonders in the heavens above, and tokens in the earth beneath: blood and fire, and the vapor of smoke."

Do you believe that dreams are one of the ways God communicates with us?

GRADES

My mom was the FIRST one to look at my spring quarter grades. She asked me, "NAKAPASA KA BA NITO??" (did you pass these classes at all?), I said, "I DON'T KNOW MOM, I HAVEN'T LOOKED AT THEM YET AND I DON'T WANT TO LOOK AT THEM AT ALL". I haven't looked at them myself and I don't want to look at them at all. The thought of seeing a much lower GPA than last quarter's one just kills my esteem.

San Juan Island Retreat (06/10-06/12)

This is a story about 15 people, who chose to live in a trailer, within a fifty acre land full of trees and wild animals, for 3 days and to find out how much fun and excitement there will be once the party gets started.
(c) real world theme, with a few words of my own.

Beeyoootifuuulll Town


When we arrived at San Juan, deja vu hit me. You see, this wasn't really my first time on the island. When I was a bit younger, my family and I went on a ferry trip to the island. I remember that we did some walking around the town and base on what my mom tells me, we also did some whale watching too. I couldn't remember that time since it was a bit long ago. But, when I saw the town, everything fell into place in my head.

It is such a nice town. It's like one of those towns where every store and every restaurant that you go into is so cozy and "home-y". The town wasn't that busy at all and I think that the majority of the people I saw were tourists.

The House

The place that we called "home" for three days was an absolute vacation spot. If you just want to get away from it all, and when I mean all, I mean ALL -- this place did not give our cellphones any signal, there was no wifi signal, no shopping malls nearby, no buzzling -- go to this spot.


This place gave us a perfect view of the ocean, sightings of wild animals such as deers and foxes, and a forest perfect for a hiking trip.

Highlights of the Party

1. Awards

The awards night was a pretty funny one. We actually didn't know that we were going to have this activity. It just happened to be sprung up on us when we were all gathered in the living room. The titles of the award given to us were pretty funny. Mine was this:


.... since I'm a big chicken eater.

2. Team Building

The team building event was a fun one too. The deal is that we all have to be partnered up with someone and with that someone you will take turns in leading each other to the beach blindfolded. I was the first to lead mine. I got scared at one point when I saw that I had to lead my partner to this really grubby area that's full of leaves, branches, mosses, thorns and a hole. I was scared because one wrong move that I make him do, something might happen to him (you know who you are.. hehehe.. ).


This activity gave me two lessons: (1) as a guide/leader: you must take care of the one that your are leading and make sure not to break the trust of the one that you are guiding. (2) as the one who is being lead: you must trust that your leader will not let anything happen to you.

The only bad part about this activity was when they told me, when I was blindfolded i might add, that we were close to a snake. DAMN.. that scared the heck out of me.

3. Water Balloon Fight (No Pictures, since I didn't want to go home with a broken camera)

The water balloon fight that we had on the last day that we were there was unexpected, yet fun. When our adviser was leading us to this tree where he carved our club initials on, three guys came out of the trail bushes and started throwing water balloons at us. That got me all fired up so I went inside the trailer and filled a water bottle with hot water to throw at them. And after the water bottle was done, I grabbed the hose and started to spray water at them. YEP. Fun Fun Fun. Fun getting revenge. LOL.

NATURE'S FINEST

I had a field day with my digicam since I was taking pictures of every single natural being that I saw in that place. I saw 2 deers roaming around the trailer grounds. We saw a fox (didn't get a chance to take a picture of it) while we're playing volleyball. And at the end of the team building activity, we walked to the beach.




There, we saw a school of whales swimming around.



It was a relaxing experience, being one with nature and all that crap.It was also fun experiencing sleeping outdoors. I experienced my actual first camping out experience during this retreat. Sleeping in a tent is not bad. hehehe.. I guess it's safe to say that I appreciate nature more now compared to before. I used to hate nature trippings, because I'm afraid of things that crawl, dirt, rain and all that natural events that happen when you do a tripping. But, this island trip changed my whole perspective.

SPENDING IT WITH FRIENDS MADE IT ALL WORTHWHILE.

At first, I wasn't planning on going on this trip for reasons that I can't disclose because I might get killed (hehe). But, when my mom said I could go, which surprised me, I decided to go. It was fun laughing with them and sharing moments with them.




(click on image to see the bigger picture)


After this trip, I realized that I enjoy outdoors-y trips with friends rather than with family. It's much more interesting that way. I'd rather go to Vegas or to California with family rather than go to the beach with them. hehe.. but that's just me comparing... hehehe..

GENERALIZATION ...

My pet-peeves list keeps on growing day by day.

If people assume stuff about someone or something and then let's the whole public know about their "assumptions", without even confirming if it is true or not, I just feel "sorry" for them.

If you have "assumptions", may I suggest to you that you first confirm whether or not your assumptions are true before letting the public know about it.

Confirmation is like science people. Here's how: You first write down your hypothesis (your assumption), then you make observations, then you test out your observations by asking, experimenting or surveying. After you've done all that, then you go make your own conclusions base on the results of your tests.

That's not hard now is it?

I shouldn't say that I'm a saint who doesn't assume at all. I'm also guilty of it. But I know how to control it and I know where I should draw the line.

Finals Week.

I just realized how much rambling I did on yesterday's entry (or I should say entries). I had way too much time in my hands last weekend that instead of studying for the two finals that I will be having on Thursday, all I did was surf, blog, blogread, listen to music and sleep. Hmm.. talk about preparing. I wonder how I will do on those finals? Cumulative finals that is. Damn. Haa.. And now, as you can tell, instead of studying, I'm blogging. This is the reason why I don't like to stay here in my house these days; I never get anything productive done. All I do is work with my computer or sleep. Crap. Crap. Crap.

Ok.. I'm going to sleep.. I'm tired... hehehe.. YEAHH... Ask me on Friday how my finals went and you're most likely will be hearing this from me: "WAAAAAHHHHH".

photos from GO-OGLE

He's HOT. She's HOT.



Put them together in one movie and you'll be ogling like you've never ogled before.

(ahem.. paging amtot .... paging amtot.. )

How To Deal . .

And it's like, every time I turn around
I fall in love and find my heart face down and
Where it lands is where it should
This time it's like
The two of us should probably start to fight
Coz something's gotta go wrong
Coz I'm feeling way to dam good, oh
Feelin' way too damn good

Sometimes I think best if left in the memory
It's better kept inside than left for good
Lookin' back each time they tried to tell me
Well something's gotta go wrong
Coz I'm feelin' way too damn good
- feeling way too damn good, nickelback

How Cruel People Can Get

What is up with people with leaving their dogs in their cars while they shop, eat, or hear mass??

It just pisses me off whenever I see a dog left in a car while their so-called "best friends" are out flaunting around thinking that their pets can surmount the hotness or coldness that their car can get.

Just leave the dog in your freaking house!

ang dami kong namimiss

i miss my two best friends.
namimiss ko ang mga laugh trips namin.
namimiss ko mga "talks" namin.
namimiss ko silang kausapin.
namimiss ko yung katarayan nilang dalawa
namimiss ko yung tamang "trippings" namin sa isa't isa
namimiss ko yung mga "reality checks"
namimiss ko yung mga "advices" nila

i miss my "closest-to-best" guy friend.
ang tagal na naming di naguusap
namimiss ko yung mga kalokohan namin
namimiss ko yung mga kuentuhan namin about life
namimiss ko syang bara-barahin
namimiss ko rin yung balugaan naming dalawa
namimiss ko rin yung perspective nya tungkol sa mga bagay bagay

Hay.. Life ...

marami kang expectations sa sarili mo
matataas ang tinatry mong abutin
pag di mo naabot
nagdadrama ka
iiyak ka
magrereklamo ka

pag mataas ang expectation mo sa sarili mo
wala ka
lagi ka na lang magiging stressed
lagi ka na lang seryoso

pinarealize na sayo ng ibang tao yan dati
pero hanggang ngaun di mo pa rin ginagawan ng paraan
para maayos

kelan mo gagawan ng paraan?
kapag wala ng tao sa tabi mo
para makinig sa mga reklamo mo?

andyan si God..
nasa tabi mo lang
iniintay ka lang nyang kausapin mo sya tungkol dun
ikaw naman
di mo kinakausap

ang mga ganong bagay ...

di na kelangang ulit-ulitin
di na kelangang pansinin
di na kelangang alalahanin
di na kelangang bigyan ng panahon
nakakapagod kasi
wala kasing kuenta kung pagtutuunan ng sobra sobrang pansin

marami pang bagay ang mas importante
marami pang bagay ang mas dapat bigyan pansin
marami pang bagay ang mas magpapasaya
marami pang bagay ang mas magpapagaan ng loob

Super Late Photos of Southborder

(Forgive the quality of the pictures. I had to zoom in on them since we're far from the stage. Forgive the presentantion also. I'm telling you, playing around with Photoshop at 1:30 in the morning does not create good presentantions.)

This is a very late post about their concert that I attended last year at Baker Hall in UP Los Banos. As far as I can remember, while watching them croon the crowd with their ballads, my friend and I can't stop oogling over Duncan. This band put up a very good show despite their constant change of lead singers.

Greatest Fear Realized

You're afraid that when something good happens to your life, something bad will swoop in and take that good away from you.

Awww.. How Cute is This?

photo c/o: google images

carpa diem

a friend told me to "seize the moment". carpe diem daw. (ahem.. kleia.)

i don't think i can do it. i'm afraid to get hurt. i'm afraid to get burned. i'm afraid that i won't be able to live up to the moment.

hmm.. talk about living a good life.

back to the uptight and rigid moi.....

errr... University of Washington accepted me!! WIHH!!!!!

So.. that entry that I made about me going to Seattle Pacific University ... hehe.. erase it from the memory.. hehehe..

GAIL... SARAH... Please don't kill me... :D

Tragic and Pathetic

another picture post

Stuck in A Moment

"waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought, useless and disappointing."

--- Sam to Austin in A Cinderella's Story

I watched A Cinderella's Story again today. I couldn't do anything today that doesn't involve my bed in it. The upper one quarter of my body is hurting a lot right now. WOOT. Time to see the doctor; the idea that I dread the most.

I watched Star Wars Episode 3 yesterday with friends. It's a better movie than the second one. I'm thinking now that I should rent Episodes 4-6 since I completely have forgotten about what happened in those movies. I watched it like a few years back when I was still a kid.

MMKAI.. Time to go.

Star Wars III: Revenge of the Sith --- OPENING DAY!!

WHO WANTS TO WATCH IT?? C'MON PEOPLE.. PLEASE.. GO WITH ME.. I WANNA WATCH IT.. BADLY... PLEASEEEE.. PLEASEEE... I'LL BUY YOU POPCORN.. I PROMISE.. JUST WATCH IT WITH ME.. PLEASSSEEEE...

PLEEEEASSSEEEEEEEEEEEEE?????

[*ahem* paging J.J. (",)]

New Song - Heard It from the One Tree Hill TVS

Click this link --->> MP3 <<--- to hear the song.

Mixtape

by: Butch Walker

You say hello, inside I'm screaming I love you
You say goodnight, in my mind
I'm sleeping next to you.
You drive away from my car crash of a heart
And I don't know...

But you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than
that, about me and you..

You talk to him, and it burns me like the sun
You talk to her, and you say that you feel
Like he's the one
I talk to me, but you can't hear the pain I
Feel, you don't know..

'Cause you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the sad songs ain't so sad
I only wish that there was more than
That, about me and you..

(bridge)
Oh, don't turn around and say bye again
Yeah it crushes my head when you call me
Your friend and I'm not the same person
From back in the day in the back of the
Class that you thought was gay
No I can't find the words 'cause I lost them
The minute they fell out my mouth
And it's love and I'm in it, so give me your
Lips and just let me kiss 'em and let's
Get messed up and listen to probably..

The best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than
That, about me and you

It struck a chord somewhere in me.

You can also hear this song on the One Tree Hill Soundtrack.

Fickle-Fickle

I've been a very fickle person for the past week or so. I delete entries that I post, I change my mind about my major, I change my mind about "other" stuff, and the list just goes on. I'm starting to annoy myself.

The reason why I'm indecisive? I honestly don't know.

But I have my reasons on why I've been deleting entries. First of all, I don't think that their content sends out what I'm really trying to say and second of all, I just thought that they were a bit too shallow.

Anyway, my mom did my laundry again for the second week in a row. I'm not complaining, I just don't want her to do it, I want ME to do it. I told her about it and she just gave me her signature "taray" look and said, "dapat nga mag-thank you ka imbis na magangal ka". So, yes she has a point there, but still, I feel that I'm the one who should be responsible for it since it is my stuff. Hay.. Mothers .. You can't live without them.

A Positive Attitude Coming from A Positive Woman

I admire how my mom handle her problems. I admire how she stays positive in the midst of money problems, health problems and work problems. Just today, she told me: "Di bale na na naoverboard ako sa payment, basta ba maganda ang aking hair".

I wish I had her positive attitude sometimes.

I wish I could say "di bale nang 2.0 ako sa Organic Chem, basta ba nandito ang computer ko sa tabi ko, solve na ko". But it's not always easy to say it, nor is it easy for me to focus on such positive words. There's always this thing called "pessimism" that creeps up on me.

I guess that's life, it's complicated that way.

Mood Swings Galore

We all have it one way or the other. One minute you're happy and the next thing you know you're as sad as the homeless guy living at the corner of 5th Avenue.

Life is complicated that way. You can never figure out what makes your happiness go away in just a blink of an eye. You can never figure out what's bothering your head even if you do a whole lot of overanalyzing and contemplating.

It's hard to face people when you undergo a certain change in attitude. Sometimes, people tend to think that you're just making "drama" or that you're just looking for attention.

Life is so complicated that way.

BIG Realization

I just realized that my dog, Curly, is a BIG WEIRDO.

Here's why:

1. He's afraid of things that are smaller and less stronger than him, i.e., the vacuum cleaner, plastic bags, folding tables, the can of chocolates, and well, I already forgot the other stuff.

2. He still sleeps in this teeny tiny bed that he sleeps in when he was little. Just look:



3. He likes his DRY dog food wet. He hasn't been eating his food dry for the past week and I always catch him eating our other dog's food (which we wet because our other dog can't chew well anymore). So I figured today, why not wet his food with water? So, after I put water in his food, he started eating it. Here's proof:



Is there such a saying as "what the master IS like, IS what the dog will be like"? Cause, I swear if there is one, I will laugh my ass off.

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"driving at 160 mph is therapeutic"
"listening to an ipod that is crunked up to high volume is therapeutic"
"crying is therapeutic"
"impulse shopping is therapeutic"

I have done three out of four of these.

When can I do the first one?